I hate my friends, I hate my family, I hate my pets

[synchroscope]

Because they're all keeping me tied here. I know at least 4 people are likely to attempt if I CTB and I fucking despise them all for it. Fuck you for being so attached to the fake person you think you know, who doesn't care about you even half as much as you care about them. Honestly if everybody I knew died tomorrow I would be relieved.

My pets are the only ones I feel bad about hating for this reason. They're not human, they don't deserve to be left alone just because humans are the worst. But they already don't understand why their lives suck and I don't know want to make that worse.

 

[wham311]

Because they're all keeping me tied here. I know at least 4 people are likely to attempt if I CTB and I fucking despise them all for it. Fuck you for being so attached to the fake person you think you know. Honestly if everybody I knew died tomorrow I would be relieved.

My pets are the only ones I feel bad about hating for this reason. They're not human, they don't deserve to be left alone just because humans are the worst. But they already don't understand why their lives suck and I don't know want to make that worse.

I completely feel this

I irrationally hate them for not being able to help me with this. I love the fucking shit out of my dog. I love them all but the dog is just a poor little animal whose heart you're gonna break

 

[BojackHorseman]

I understand how you feel. To try and make a very long story very short, I resented my new puppy when I first got her. I actually told my husband to tell the rescue were just gonna foster her. I felt like you, I loved her but also resented her for tying me to this world. Once my old dog had died, I felt "freed" just to be tied down again. And I feel that resentment towards my husband occasionally too. Im in recovery so those thoughts are few and far between the past few months, but I totally empathize and wish you the best.

 

[usernamesarehard]

I mostly don't like my pets because they're a responsibility. I'm tired, I'm depressed, I just want to sleep and not have to worry about the well being of another creature. They won't stop me from ctb, though if I choose to do that. I don't love them enough to not and also, they're animals, they won't really care. Both of my pets don't like me.

I don't know anyone with such bad mental health that they would ctb if I died. So I'm not too worried about that.

 

[LittleJem]

I can hate my brother for not letting me go in peace. I've been vocal about wanting to die for so many years. My suffering is not acknowledged and I hang on out of fear and not to upset people.