Venting i hate how sad i make people

[kindawannacrylol]

I hate how sad I make people. I put on a facade when I'm around people and I don't tell people much about my life. I made the mistake of telling a friend about the chaos in my life and she was so so sad, she spent the rest of our coffee shop trip silent and couldn't even hug me goodbye. My shit is so heavy it ruins other people, my sadness is so contagious it's like a disease, whenever i get close to anyone it's like i smother them in darkness. a friend stopped talking to me and when i asked her why she said speaking to me makes her sad. i hate that i make people i love feel like that. it sucks

 

[BitumenSquid]

I feel this my guy. When your own sadness completely consumes you it's hard not to effect other people but that's because they're upset for you. Because they care about you. At least you've got that, you know? I'm sorry to hear that your suffering is so severe, though.

 

[jessisme]

I know it's awful. I feel like every time I open my life it's just one big sob story that no one knows how to respond to. It's not that I am trying to bring people down, it's just my reality. It's a drag to be such a bummer. Maybe sharing my story helps people appreciate how good their lives are in comparison. I hope it would do that. Otherwise
it's just meaningless suffering.

 

[Hystearical]

Some people aren't cut out for providing emotional support or are particularly sensitive to negativity. That doesn't mean you don't have the right to feel how you are or that you're responsible for how other people react to your feelings.

 

[BBBB]

I completely understand :-(

 

[Huntfish34]

Yepp, it's terrible. Fckn sucks to say the Least. I've had..... Numerous friends stop talking to me the past few years, ( I still haven't had the nerve to ask them why or anything but I'm Assuming it's because of my negativity / sad toxic attitude towards life )..it's down right soul crushing. =/ I hate it.

Right there with ya, you are Not alone even though it might feel like it. Thoughts and prayers to you in whatever the future may hold. Take care of yourself if possible-

 

[Dominicka]

Same. I feel ya.