hoppybunny
Fearer of the Future
- Jun 26, 2024
- 301
I literally just got a text and call from a relative telling me I'd be a good fit for a volunteer position. And i know they're only saying this because I'm still basically unemployed since i hate my current job so much I've told no one except my best friends. Literally only 8 ppl know.
And I've just avoided his call and message so he doesn't know I've seen it cause I'm too much of a pussy to say no thank you.
My brain instantly was like oh my god another forced commitment just kill yourself. Kill yourself now so you don't have to do it. But i also know i don't have to and i can just say no. But i don't want to tell him about my shitty job. But if i say no without a job I'll look like a dumbass refusing a good volunteer opportunity while I'm unemployed
I don't want to tell him i don't want to do it. Cause in reality I'm not interested in anything related to my degree. I just wanted one of those brain dead 9-5 jobs that everyone acts like is hell on earth because they "want to feel productive " like ok give the job to me then if it sucks. Anytime.i ask ppl like this what their job title is, it's always, "oh u don't want this job it's terrible" like sthu. I'd kill to have a job i can turn my brain off for 9 hours and come home instead of this fucking hellish job i have now.
I just want to quit or be fired but i can't cause I'm reliant on my parents and my mum got me the job so it'll make her look bad if i quit.
Like also just knowing someone unqualified as me got the job cause my mum works there makes me so angry cause i stole the job from someone who actually wants and needed it. And it basically made me realize that is probably one of the main reasons i don't even get an interviewwwww on jobs I'm definitely qualified for
And I've just avoided his call and message so he doesn't know I've seen it cause I'm too much of a pussy to say no thank you.
My brain instantly was like oh my god another forced commitment just kill yourself. Kill yourself now so you don't have to do it. But i also know i don't have to and i can just say no. But i don't want to tell him about my shitty job. But if i say no without a job I'll look like a dumbass refusing a good volunteer opportunity while I'm unemployed
I don't want to tell him i don't want to do it. Cause in reality I'm not interested in anything related to my degree. I just wanted one of those brain dead 9-5 jobs that everyone acts like is hell on earth because they "want to feel productive " like ok give the job to me then if it sucks. Anytime.i ask ppl like this what their job title is, it's always, "oh u don't want this job it's terrible" like sthu. I'd kill to have a job i can turn my brain off for 9 hours and come home instead of this fucking hellish job i have now.
I just want to quit or be fired but i can't cause I'm reliant on my parents and my mum got me the job so it'll make her look bad if i quit.
Like also just knowing someone unqualified as me got the job cause my mum works there makes me so angry cause i stole the job from someone who actually wants and needed it. And it basically made me realize that is probably one of the main reasons i don't even get an interviewwwww on jobs I'm definitely qualified for
