moondazed
ex nihilo nihil fit
- Oct 14, 2023
- 169
I loathe and dislike the police, politicians, corporate goons, and so much about this world but I don't have the energy to hate it all. I hate one person, and I revel in the fact he's rotting in prison. That's exhausting enough.Hate is such a destructive mindset.
Despite all the shit people have put me through, and all of the destruction, bigotry and greed humans are capable of, I have never hated humanity (minus the police and bigots lol.) However I can't be too hard on the op. When I was at my worst I was a seething ball of self-hatred, and full of so much animosity for myself that I didn't feel I deserved to live. I've seen what hatred can do and how it can destroy a person.
I just cannot fathom wanting to bring down others with you. I wanted to die out of a belief I would be bettering the world and no longer burdening others (I was wrong, btw.) I would think a suicidal person would have empathy for people and not wish the same level of suffering they're experiencing onto others. I've been proven wrong.
Op isn't in a good place and I hope they find an end to their seething rage one day. It can't be fun to live with. It is not an excuse to goad and bully people tho. I agree.
Maybe they just don't truly understand the meaning of hate, and are throwing it around in place of frustration, which is understandable. I hope OP finds some peace. I really, really hope they don't hurt anyone else.