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Jaylee

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Aug 19, 2018
43
Hi

Normally i don't post. But i had a rough week already. I had a car crash yesterday. Unfortunately it wasn't bad enough to kill me. But i know the police will take my driver licence away.

Soo i was thinking of ctb as soon as i can. My new go to method is banging my head against a brick wall. I've read that if you do it hard enough and many times. You will eventually die.

I was thinking maybe some alcohol with my antidepressants and just go for it. I asked ChatGPT and they said around 20 times will kill you if there is no one around.

So sorry to bother you all.

Bye
 
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PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
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Sorry you went through this.

I'm not here to tell you to live, but I don't recommend doing anything impulsive, that can leave you worse off.
 
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Leonard_Bangley39

Hate life but scared of death
Nov 6, 2025
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Im not sure that that would be a great method. Im not an expert but i feel like even if you manage to power through your body's natural instinct to not bang your head against a wall, you would most likely end up unconscious before you could ctb doing it
 
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Jaylee

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Aug 19, 2018
43
Normally my plan was to ctb with someone. But if they take my drivers licence i won't be able to go anymore. I've been thinking a long time about how to cbt. i thought that banging my head was a better option than hanging.
 
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whywere

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Jun 26, 2020
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My heart broke into so many pieces reading this post.

The cops may not take your license away, is it a sure deal that they would/will?

You are WAY TOO VALUABLE of a friend, family member on here and a loving, caring soul, to ctb over this.

I have no issues with ctb or non ctb, 100% pure personal choice, HOWEVER, my gut is telling me that this is not as much of a rush thought pattern, as it is anxiety fueled.

The one aspect, I have had 2 attempts, to always remember is ctb is one and done, never ever a do over ever.

I hope and pray that you take a huge deep breath, relax, not be so rough on yourself and close your eyes and see what it is.

Look at it this way, what is the worse? They take your driving privileges away for a bit of time, you will get it back, and I hedge to guess that it is over 50% of a chance that nothing happens to you.

I was in a very bad car crash in April 2015, it messed me up pretty darn good, HOWEVER, I be darned if it will choose for me. I will choose for myself, and I deal with 24/7 chronic pain from it, but I will NOT, as of yet, let it get me. I have way too many friends on here, you included, and I love helping and making folks better, like YOU!

I am very sorry about the crash, but like when I was in ICU after my crash, a doctor came in, and I was grumbling about this and that and he said something to the fact of: "you are still sucking ai, right?", and I laughed and moved on.

I hope and pray that everything works out for you, and PLEASE take a step back, think, NO knee jerk reactions, and continue being a friend to/for me on here, please.

Walter
 
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Jaylee

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Aug 19, 2018
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My heart broke into so many pieces reading this post.

The cops may not take your license away, is it a sure deal that they would/will?

You are WAY TOO VALUABLE of a friend, family member on here and a loving, caring soul, to ctb over this.

I have no issues with ctb or non ctb, 100% pure personal choice, HOWEVER, my gut is telling me that this is not as much of a rush thought pattern, as it is anxiety fueled.

The one aspect, I have had 2 attempts, to always remember is ctb is one and done, never ever a do over ever.

I hope and pray that you take a huge deep breath, relax, not be so rough on yourself and close your eyes and see what it is.

Look at it this way, what is the worse? They take your driving privileges away for a bit of time, you will get it back, and I hedge to guess that it is over 50% of a chance that nothing happens to you.

I was in a very bad car crash in April 2015, it messed me up pretty darn good, HOWEVER, I be darned if it will choose for me. I will choose for myself, and I deal with 24/7 chronic pain from it, but I will NOT, as of yet, let it get me. I have way too many friends on here, you included, and I love helping and making folks better, like YOU!

I am very sorry about the crash, but like when I was in ICU after my crash, a doctor came in, and I was grumbling about this and that and he said something to the fact of: "you are still sucking ai, right?", and I laughed and moved on.

I hope and pray that everything works out for you, and PLEASE take a step back, think, NO knee jerk reactions, and continue being a friend to/for me on here, please.

Walter
Unfortunately I need to send it to them or they come here. I was intoxicated when i had the crash. The crash was meant to kill me. I took a lot of pills and alcohol. So i know i will never have my licence again.

I'm mentally just done.
 
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Bruce

Bruce

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Sep 22, 2023
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They might take your licence or they might not but (depending on the legislation) if they do take it then at some point they will give it back to you. It will take some time though.
 
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DeadManLiving

DeadManLiving

Ticketholder
Sep 9, 2022
529
Only a Court can suspend your driver license, unless it expires. The cops can't just come and randomly take it at will, that would be theft.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,148
I hope you find peace from suffering, I wish you the best.
 
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android

Student
Nov 9, 2025
119
There are countless opportunities to kill yourself and there is potentially only one opportunity to live. Not saying don't do it at all, but you don't sound like you're in the right state of mind right now. At least wait a bit. Also, that is a shitty method with a very high failure rate.
 
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Terrible_Life

Warlock
Jul 3, 2025
712
Hi

Normally i don't post. But i had a rough week already. I had a car crash yesterday. Unfortunately it wasn't bad enough to kill me. But i know the police will take my driver licence away.

Soo i was thinking of ctb as soon as i can. My new go to method is banging my head against a brick wall. I've read that if you do it hard enough and many times. You will eventually die.

I was thinking maybe some alcohol with my antidepressants and just go for it. I asked ChatGPT and they said around 20 times will kill you if there is no one around.

So sorry to bother you all.

Bye
Please don't do that. You won't reach your goal but instead have lots of physical pain. If you really wanna die then you must choose a safe method like hanging or using a gun.
 
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Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
934
I am here to tell you to live you shouldn't ctb and let me tell you ChatGPT is lying you would painfully bleed out man don't listen to it I don't know if this will change your mind but you are worth more then you think and I care about you dude even if I don't really know you I just wanted to tell you don't jump to conclusions and death is a permanent solution to a indeterminate problem just think it through objectively and subjectively
Moderators, could you please get rid of this infiltrator.
 
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Jaylee

Member
Aug 19, 2018
43
Please don't do that. You won't reach your goal but instead have lots of physical pain. If you really wanna die then you must choose a safe method like hanging or using a gun.
Hmm okay. I'll go back to my original method. Hanging. So if nobody hears from me again. I finally found peace.
 
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