Story I got hospitalised and its postponed my suicide

[sweetsweetsuicide]

I'd already got the perfect plan, but someone found out I was going to kill myself so I was hospitalised. Because of this I haven't been able to continue to collect enough poison for it.

While I was in hospital I was desperate, and tried to strangle myself with a cord but a nurse grabbed me and pulled it off before It did any damage and they injected me with lorazepam. I think that trying to ctb in hospital only made things worse and now I'm under more supervision than ever. It's going to be a long time until I can continue getting what I need so that I can commit suicide.

I've been discharged now but they are doing daily home visits and I'm being forced to take some meds I don't even know every night.

I might just try break a window at night so I can go out and finally do it. I'm so tired of everything and all anyone wants is for me to keep suffering

 

[telekon]

How do you not know what meds you are taking? That sounds like a serious breach of your rights. Do you live with your parents or have a conservator?

 

[User111885]

How do you not know what meds you are taking? That sounds like a serious breach of your rights. Do you live with your parents or have a conservator?

Is your avatar a photo of someone being accidentally electrocuted? It's really upsetting.

I'd already got the perfect plan, but someone found out I was going to kill myself so I was hospitalised. Because of this I haven't been able to continue to collect enough poison for it.

While I was in hospital I was desperate, and tried to strangle myself with a cord but a nurse grabbed me and pulled it off before It did any damage and they injected me with lorazepam. I think that trying to ctb in hospital only made things worse and now I'm under more supervision than ever. It's going to be a long time until I can continue getting what I need so that I can commit suicide.

I've been discharged now but they are doing daily home visits and I'm being forced to take some meds I don't even know every night.

I might just try break a window at night so I can go out and finally do it. I'm so tired of everything and all anyone wants is for me to keep suffering

how did someone find out you were going to kill yourself?

 

[traingirl]

Is your avatar a photo of someone being accidentally electrocuted? It's really upsetting.

how did someone find out you were going to kill yourself?

I think it's a joke. Toaster in bath joke. Nobody dies by that anymore.

 

[telekon]

I think it's a joke. Toaster in bath joke. Nobody dies by that anymore.

It's a picture of a guy committing suicide in the bath with a toaster. You can actually see the two pieces of toast flying off to the side in the photo.

I really like your Lana Del Rey jumping off a cliff one it's aesthetic af... I think I was going for "aesthetic/meme" but yeah I can see how it would upset people

Is your avatar a photo of someone being accidentally electrocuted? It's really upsetting.

I can't really justify it. It's pretty morbid... I guess I'll change it if it upsets people. Sowwy!

 

[sweetsweetsuicide]

How do you not know what meds you are taking? That sounds like a serious breach of your rights. Do you live with your parents or have a conservator?

I live with my parents.
I didn't know it was a breach of my rights though, I'm going to demand that my parents tell me what they've been making me take!!

 

[User111885]

It's a picture of a guy committing suicide in the bath with a toaster. You can actually see the two pieces of toast flying off to the side in the photo.

I really like your Lana Del Rey jumping off a cliff one it's aesthetic af... I think I was going for "aesthetic/meme" but yeah I can see how it would upset people

I can't really justify it. It's pretty morbid... I guess I'll change it if it upsets people. Sowwy!

is it an actual suicide picture? did the person want to die and want people to see that? i figured it was an accidental electrocution. if the person wanted to livestream their suicide, it bothers me less, but it still feels upsetting, like trivializing the person's death, although maybe the deceased wouldn't see it that way. Is it AI generated or real? It looks real to me,

 

[telekon]

is it an actual suicide picture? did the person want to die and want people to see that? i figured it was an accidental electrocution. if the person wanted to livestream their suicide, it bothers me less, but it still feels upsetting, like trivializing the person's death, although maybe the deceased wouldn't see it that way. Is it AI generated or real? It looks real to me,

I can't find the video, but not only did he livestream his own "suicide" but it was a stunt. If you watch the video closely, you notice the toaster is not plugged in, but the editing is top notch and you see sparks fly and he does this really over-the-top scream. It's just a meme.

Still gonna change it though so thanks for pointing out that it could bother people.

 

[User111885]

I can't find the video, but not only did he livestream his own "suicide" but it was a stunt. If you watch the video closely, you notice the toaster is not plugged in, but the editing is top notch and you see sparks fly and he does this really over-the-top scream. It's just a meme.

Still gonna change it though so thanks for pointing out that it could bother people.

If it's just a meme and not real, maybe it doesn't matter? Also, I am even more triggered and offended by your new "hi-lite" avatar. Do you know that smoking kills more people than suicide and murder and traffic accidents all combined together and multiplied by 3? You're promoting smoking to the suicidal! That's bad.

 

[telekon]

There. Now it's Vertigo at Guantanamo Bay.

 

[User111885]

There. Now it's Vertigo at Guantanamo Bay.

So... offensive.