I got close

[leavingthesoultrap]

I attempted yesterday but couldn't chug the SN down.
I got closer than with my first attempt, I was calm and didn't freeze but again failed due to SI.

 

[uncat_]

maybe youre not ready then? its okay to wait a little longer..

 

[RejectedKarma]

This is not an easy process, the journeys are individual and this is yours. Reflections are always helpful and time can help in finding answers.
Take care

 

[UKscotty]

The physical act of suicide is easy, getting and becoming ready is literally the last resort and the hardest thing a human can do.

Be gentle on yourself, it will take time and patience to be truly ready to CTB.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you failed. It's not that bad bc it's not an easy task. We're here for u!

Don't be too hard to yourself!!

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

Thanks guys. My situation is complicated and I have ups and downs all the time. I guess that in the back of my mind I felt like I have other options to try still, before making the final decision

 

[LunarLight]

SI is a bitch. Sleep on it, you've got all your life to make such a decision.

 

[bookgirl]

Maybe your time just hasn't come yet