AngelTear
Dead before 30
- Oct 27, 2025
- 61
I will acquire a gun, I will shoot myself
I cannot exist any longer
No one really fucking cares and I cannot get out of this shitty environment to save my life
I want everyone to know
I fucking hate my family
They are a bunch of dumasses who never should've had kids
My mom is a schizo who refuses to help herself and keeps hurting me with her delusion beliefs and refusal to work. She just tried to kill herself a few days ago. I wished that bitch died then my dad tbh, at least I be free, I know her crazy ass gonna get out of the hospital doing the same shit again and never get better.
My dad is a stupid fucking dumbass who always has some bullshit to say to me he is disabled and needs a caretaker but always defaults to my mom and no one fucking else (putting eggs all in one basket) then when my mom ends up hospitalized expects me to somehow cover for here despite not being her. He doesn't even fucking know his own medication routine because his wife did it all for him. His dumbass reluctance to call people to help out and build a support network to make us suffer less. He's fucking dumbfuck who also always has the most braindead shit to say to me.
My brother is a holier than though narc asshole who was my first bully. He never fucking helps us out, the first time and the last time I ever asked him for help he got made at me calling me spoiled and saying that I'm upset I have to lift a finger. The only "help" he's ever given was giving out bible verses since the lord will heal it apparently. I hope he fucking dies too fucking asshole.
They're jehovah's witnesses too, fucking stupid ass religion.
I cannot find a way out to save my fucking life. All the help ever offered to me is fucking bullshit. I NEED SOMEWHERE ELSE TO GO TO LIVE OTHERWISE I HAVE TO DIE. But I have no funds, no transportation, no support network, no one to live with.... THERE'S LITERALLY NOTHING OUT THERE AS A LIFE LINE. I'm sick of people's help anyways, it's all just bullshit upon bullshit and even more BULLSHIT, stalling the inevitable.
My dream was to be taken in by someone far away from where I live and starting a new life and actually getting up off my feet but it's just that, A FUCKING DREAM. People don't actually care about me truly. No one would bend over backwards for me like that...that's the shit that only exists in movies- it's fictional.
Whatever... Fucking hate my stupid ass family
Also let it be known that I am non-binary and aroace, respect my identity. I loved making art, dolls, learning languages, animals and so many other things. I mourn the fact that there's shit I still wanted to do but will NEVER get to do them now because of this absolute fucking mess.
I hope my attempt is not foiled, I do not wish to live any longer and deal with constant stupidity from people and suffering. Fuck a savior, that shit never existed for me.
I cannot exist any longer
No one really fucking cares and I cannot get out of this shitty environment to save my life
I want everyone to know
I fucking hate my family
They are a bunch of dumasses who never should've had kids
My mom is a schizo who refuses to help herself and keeps hurting me with her delusion beliefs and refusal to work. She just tried to kill herself a few days ago. I wished that bitch died then my dad tbh, at least I be free, I know her crazy ass gonna get out of the hospital doing the same shit again and never get better.
My dad is a stupid fucking dumbass who always has some bullshit to say to me he is disabled and needs a caretaker but always defaults to my mom and no one fucking else (putting eggs all in one basket) then when my mom ends up hospitalized expects me to somehow cover for here despite not being her. He doesn't even fucking know his own medication routine because his wife did it all for him. His dumbass reluctance to call people to help out and build a support network to make us suffer less. He's fucking dumbfuck who also always has the most braindead shit to say to me.
My brother is a holier than though narc asshole who was my first bully. He never fucking helps us out, the first time and the last time I ever asked him for help he got made at me calling me spoiled and saying that I'm upset I have to lift a finger. The only "help" he's ever given was giving out bible verses since the lord will heal it apparently. I hope he fucking dies too fucking asshole.
They're jehovah's witnesses too, fucking stupid ass religion.
I cannot find a way out to save my fucking life. All the help ever offered to me is fucking bullshit. I NEED SOMEWHERE ELSE TO GO TO LIVE OTHERWISE I HAVE TO DIE. But I have no funds, no transportation, no support network, no one to live with.... THERE'S LITERALLY NOTHING OUT THERE AS A LIFE LINE. I'm sick of people's help anyways, it's all just bullshit upon bullshit and even more BULLSHIT, stalling the inevitable.
My dream was to be taken in by someone far away from where I live and starting a new life and actually getting up off my feet but it's just that, A FUCKING DREAM. People don't actually care about me truly. No one would bend over backwards for me like that...that's the shit that only exists in movies- it's fictional.
Whatever... Fucking hate my stupid ass family
Also let it be known that I am non-binary and aroace, respect my identity. I loved making art, dolls, learning languages, animals and so many other things. I mourn the fact that there's shit I still wanted to do but will NEVER get to do them now because of this absolute fucking mess.
I hope my attempt is not foiled, I do not wish to live any longer and deal with constant stupidity from people and suffering. Fuck a savior, that shit never existed for me.
