Venting I give up on life

[sulk]

Life is so exhausting to keep up with. Everyone is going on with their life, succeeding, meanwhile i'm depressed contemplating whether i should live or not. I figured I might as well get it over with and ctb.

i don't know if it's just me or is everyone so fucking rude and selfish. No matter how kind they act towards me it's like i can see through their act, see their hatred towards me because im ugly and looks are everything. I've lost faith in humanity the way no one has sympathy for one another. It's not even only on the internet just in general.. like this is why i give up.

I don't think it'll ever get better for me mentally, matter of fact i don't want it to because i know deep down in my heart i don't want to live and if i get better ill ruin my chances of ctbing.

Also, it seems that my only way of enjoying life is my escapism coping mechanisms. I'm a maladaptive day dreamer and I know how much it's ruining my life but i think it's for the better. If my only way of enjoying life is escaping it then what's even the point...?

 

[LukaParrot]

Hey.... not everyone is succeeding.... most are struggling and a lot with life x job x family x money x love.

My mother said something tough about life.... no one cares about you, only your family (if you are lucky). Yes, we can be rude and selfish, but not everyone is like this.

You should seek for help, a psychologist may help you a lot.

When we close yourself in a shell to the life, nothing seens good, no company is pleasant, no friendship is real.

My point is... what you have to lose trying a little of therapy?

Hope you get better.

 

[Hollowman]

Hey.... not everyone is succeeding.... most are struggling and a lot with life x job x family x money x love.

My mother said something tough about life.... no one cares about you, only your family (if you are lucky). Yes, we can be rude and selfish, but not everyone is like this.

You should seek for help, a psychologist may help you a lot.

When we close yourself in a shell to the life, nothing seens good, no company is pleasant, no friendship is real.

My point is... what you have to lose trying a little of therapy?

Hope you get better.

She'll lose a lot of money if she's not insured.

 

[TheHolySword]

I gave up too. There's nothing for me anymore. It's never going to get better, I'm never going to get better. I'm not destined for happiness. I can at least be at peace one day.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

Life kicked me in the ass, I'm beat and I have nothing more left to give. I have no hope because I've lost everything that mattered, my only way out of this misery is CTB.

 

[_Gollum_]

I gave up too. There's nothing for me anymore. It's never going to get better, I'm never going to get better. I'm not destined for happiness. I can at least be at peace one day.

(Entirely unrelated but I love your username and profile pic, makes me feel something.)

 

[SomethingOriginal]

Life is so exhausting to keep up with. Everyone is going on with their life, succeeding, meanwhile i'm depressed contemplating whether i should live or not. I figured I might as well get it over with and ctb.

i don't know if it's just me or is everyone so fucking rude and selfish. No matter how kind they act towards me it's like i can see through their act, see their hatred towards me because im ugly and looks are everything. I've lost faith in humanity the way no one has sympathy for one another. It's not even only on the internet just in general.. like this is why i give up.

I don't think it'll ever get better for me mentally, matter of fact i don't want it to because i know deep down in my heart i don't want to live and if i get better ill ruin my chances of ctbing.

Also, it seems that my only way of enjoying life is my escapism coping mechanisms. I'm a maladaptive day dreamer and I know how much it's ruining my life but i think it's for the better. If my only way of enjoying life is escaping it then what's even the point...

Life is so exhausting to keep up with. Everyone is going on with their life, succeeding, meanwhile i'm depressed contemplating whether i should live or not. I figured I might as well get it over with and ctb.

i don't know if it's just me or is everyone so fucking rude and selfish. No matter how kind they act towards me it's like i can see through their act, see their hatred towards me because im ugly and looks are everything. I've lost faith in humanity the way no one has sympathy for one another. It's not even only on the internet just in general.. like this is why i give up.

I don't think it'll ever get better for me mentally, matter of fact i don't want it to because i know deep down in my heart i don't want to live and if i get better ill ruin my chances of ctbing.

Also, it seems that my only way of enjoying life is my escapism coping mechanisms. I'm a maladaptive day dreamer and I know how much it's ruining my life but i think it's for the better. If my only way of enjoying life is escaping it then what's even the point...?

There's nothing wrong with some escapism. That's why people read, play games, watch films etc. As for looks being everything, they are for some people, not for others. If you found someone really attractive, but they were absolutely horrible to everyone and manipulative/ had no empathy, you would probably be put off. A lot of people would. The media is the problem here I think, they say people should look a certain way, but why? Beauty is subjective, so everyone perceives looks differently if you speak to different people. Sure, some might follow a consensus, but not everyone.