Story I fucked up and now I'm in psych ward.

[StolenLife]

I went to the bridge in the middle of the night but chickened out due to height because SI was too strong. I couldn't even climb the rail for how much afraid I was. Then as I went home police caughf me and now I'm stuck in psych ward for God knows how long. And my Uni will be paused. Why was I such a coward?

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I'm sorry that you have to go through all of this. To be stuck in a psych ward seems like an unimaginable torment to me.

 

[StolenLife]

Guess I'll focus on obtaining SN. Or other poisons.

 

[👁️👃👁️]

How did they know you were trying to jump?

 

[StolenLife]

Apparently some woman reported seeing me walking by it in the dark. The police came just as I was about to leave the bridge(I left on foot and it's really long) and they asked me questions so I got scared and told them. Then they invited the ambulance and I'mnow stuck here.

 

[makethepainstop]

I went to the bridge in the middle of the night but chickened out due to height because SI was too strong. I couldn't even climb the rail for how much afraid I was. Then as I went home police caughf me and now I'm stuck in psych ward for God knows how long. And my Uni will be paused. Why was I such a coward?

Those damnable pro life idiots AGAIN! I hate em, truly I hate em!

 

[AlighieriTTT]

Apparently some woman reported seeing me walking by it in the dark. The police came just as I was about to leave the bridge(I left on foot and it's really long) and they asked me questions so I got scared and told them. Then they invited the ambulance and I'mnow stuck here.

Never tell them! I've gotten out of being sent to the hospital by lying before. If they have no evidence just lie lie lie lie lie. In the future you can say something like "I was just admiring the water" or something, it may or may not get you out of it but everyone should at least try. Police can be very intimidating and I understand how scary it can be, but you have to face those fears to avoid more trauma.

 

[LastFlowers]

I went to the bridge in the middle of the night but chickened out due to height because SI was too strong. I couldn't even climb the rail for how much afraid I was. Then as I went home police caughf me and now I'm stuck in psych ward for God knows how long. And my Uni will be paused. Why was I such a coward?

Sorry about your predicament.
But how did they catch you?
If you were already going home, how did they know about your intent?
Are you not allowed out in the middle of the night where you're from?

I used to walk around at 1-3am in my relative's neighborhood and have police vehicles drive right past me without so much as stopping, even though I looked suspicious as hell and there was nobody else out.

 

[CTB Dream]

Very sorry cruelty not understand this humans why report tell put ward human terrible not understand suffering, wish method essier this not good why keep lock this nonsense this torture, hope safe

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like a horrible situation to be in. Psych wards sound like awful places and it must be so tiring and stressful what you are going through. Jumping does sound terrifying to me, and after all as humans we are all programmed to survive even know we want to be gone so it doesn't mean that you are cowardly not being able to ctb that way. I hope that you get out of the psych ward soon.

 

[LastFlowers]

Apparently some woman reported seeing me walking by it in the dark. The police came just as I was about to leave the bridge(I left on foot and it's really long) and they asked me questions so I got scared and told them. Then they invited the ambulance and I'mnow stuck here.

Sorry, I missed this.

Some people just can't mind their own damn business.
It's gotten so much worse in modern society with all of the cameras and the social media posts with pics and captions like:
"LOOK AT THIS PERSON WALKING AROUND IN THE DARK, WHO IS THIS!? OMG I'M SO SCARED"

Absolutely nauseating.
Then everyone and their brother throws in their two cents and comments on the perceived "creepiness" of the individual just going about their stroll.
I would mostly cover myself up when I walked around at night because I pretty much knew somebody would pull that crap.
However if the cops were to stop me, I would 100% lie or just say I'm getting some air.

Never tell them! I've gotten out of being sent to the hospital by lying before. If they have no evidence just lie lie lie lie lie. In the future you can say something like "I was just admiring the water" or something, it may or may not get you out of it but everyone should at least try. Police can be very intimidating and I understand how scary it can be, but you have to face those fears to avoid more trauma.

Exactly. I second this.
(Unless you want to be there..)
Lie your ass off. Omit. Play pretend.
It's the same way to get out of the psych hospital as well.
(Probably part of the reason the data can become skewed for how "helpful" hospitalization is..because so many people have to be dishonest in order to get out.)

 

[Minibosterita]

I'm sorry you're stuck! My ex called the cops on me when I was having a bad night and they had very leading questions. I had been drinking so I answered honestly, but that was the last time I'm doing that. When it happened again I lied my ass off and instead of keeping me in the psych ward they let me go after an hour or so thankfully.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I guess the moral of the story is don't tell anyone anything, and if the cops stop and question you before you ctb, or after you "chicken out" and are leaving the area, say nothing to them, too. Admit nothing. If you weren't caught in the act, and didn't admit it, I doubt you'd be in any psyche ward right now. The woman's word wasn't enough. She had no idea what your intent was.

 

[StolenLife]

Now my abusive parents want me to stay in a ward in another town on medication. For a whole year. And the worst thing is that I basically got punished for giving up because they found me when I was leaving. Also doctors here are horrible and they called me spoiled for crying.
I didn't know about excuses I was sad and confused in the moment but yes looking back it was a horrid decision.

 

[squidhead]

Imagine being treated like a criminal and have the police on you, having your freedom removed, having no say in what happens to you and the entire field of "mental health professionals" treating you like an experiment for just wanting to exit life in peace. And society thinks this is them helping you lmao.

Im sorry you have to deal with this, I know its unfair and frankly barbaric. Been in a psych ward once as well, its awful, its dehumanizing.