livefastdieyoung
Member
- Aug 5, 2025
- 82
hello people of sasu!
i did it!! i ordered sn!! hopefully it arrives next week, but it could also take weeks/months idk
i am slowly losing my sanity, i thought hanging would be a possible method but im not sure i can do it. it just hurts and makes me feel like my head is exploding which is common.
i also have a backup.. injecting heroin to OD. im a very small person and this would surely work aslong as i dont get found. also boofing is an alternative.
i plan on getting high off h anyways before taking the sn, might as well go out feeling good one last time. this would be by snorting though, or possibly shooting but ive never tried it.
anyways... things are getting worse and worse. i cannot feel calm until i have my sn to comfort me. as each day passes, i am getting more and more comfortable with death. i dont know if ill ever make an official goodbye thread. im not really sure what i would say other than repeating what method im using. i never liked the idea of leaving a note either, since no words can capture what i want people to know when im gone. there isnt anything i want to say anyways.
ive been slowly isolating myself more and more, and its ironic because being forced to be alone with my own thoughts is what drives me crazy. its not like i have a choice. i dont really have anyone left. this world is not a place i enjoy being a part of anyways.
i made one really good friend this year. possibly the realest person i have ever met. maybe thats a story for another day.
i hope you are all doing better than i am.
ill probably make another update when the sn arrives.
thank you for all your help and support. you dont know how much this website has truly changed my life. i made a post about how 2026 is already going to be awful, but this year has brought a lot of surprises - thanks to that post. i am the most unstable i have ever been mentally. i have a feeling i will not make it to 2027.
i love you all,
sincerely z
i did it!! i ordered sn!! hopefully it arrives next week, but it could also take weeks/months idk
i am slowly losing my sanity, i thought hanging would be a possible method but im not sure i can do it. it just hurts and makes me feel like my head is exploding which is common.
i also have a backup.. injecting heroin to OD. im a very small person and this would surely work aslong as i dont get found. also boofing is an alternative.
i plan on getting high off h anyways before taking the sn, might as well go out feeling good one last time. this would be by snorting though, or possibly shooting but ive never tried it.
anyways... things are getting worse and worse. i cannot feel calm until i have my sn to comfort me. as each day passes, i am getting more and more comfortable with death. i dont know if ill ever make an official goodbye thread. im not really sure what i would say other than repeating what method im using. i never liked the idea of leaving a note either, since no words can capture what i want people to know when im gone. there isnt anything i want to say anyways.
ive been slowly isolating myself more and more, and its ironic because being forced to be alone with my own thoughts is what drives me crazy. its not like i have a choice. i dont really have anyone left. this world is not a place i enjoy being a part of anyways.
i made one really good friend this year. possibly the realest person i have ever met. maybe thats a story for another day.
i hope you are all doing better than i am.
ill probably make another update when the sn arrives.
thank you for all your help and support. you dont know how much this website has truly changed my life. i made a post about how 2026 is already going to be awful, but this year has brought a lot of surprises - thanks to that post. i am the most unstable i have ever been mentally. i have a feeling i will not make it to 2027.
i love you all,
sincerely z
