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Liebestod

Liebestod

Suicide Enthusiast
Mar 15, 2025
540
I'm happy guys. Yesterday my ammo that I ordered a week ago came. Now all I would need to do is get a 9mm carbine rifle which I can do anytime I please or wait two years to get a 10mm pistol. It's all in my hands now. A 9mm +P load out of a rifle is roughly equivalent to the kinetic energy you'd get out of a 10mm pistol, which is the kinetic energy that I'm aiming for to ensure my death (1400+fps muzzle velocity and 500+ ft/lbs of muzzle energy). Of course shot placement is the most important factor which I'll practice by dry firing whenever I decide to buy whichever gun I'll use. It's finally all in my control and I couldn't be happier. I wish a lot of you guys could have the same control. I recognize that I'm in an extremely privileged position compared to some of you guys and I hope all of you guys can have the same as me. I wish you all the best.
 
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LoverofAnimals

Giver of Hugs
Sep 20, 2025
186
I'm so happy for you that you have control now. It's such a good feeling to have that you can do it whenever you want and that it is your choice.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,275
this video shows 9mm ammo and different guns.



imo as as the video seems to suggest hollow point and the highest velocity ammo is best for me.

yes muzzle energy is also very important .

but as you said to me the most important is aim and shot placement , mainly not flinching before the shot. praticing dry firing the gun without ammo and or dummy rounds will prevent flinching before the shot . practice should be done every day.

in this video below he shot a ballistic dummy head from idk 20-30 meters? he hit the top of the head imo but the bullet destroyed all the head and the jaw bone 6 inches away from where it hit . but this is a win mag rifle the ammo was 2800 fps plus. this also the muzzle energy. so if he can hit the brainstem from 20 meters i can hit it touching my skull. much more energy is with a contact shot and the hot gasses go into the head and brain further exploding the head

 
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Liebestod

Liebestod

Suicide Enthusiast
Mar 15, 2025
540
this video shows 9mm ammo and different guns.



imo as as the video seems to suggest hollow point and the highest velocity ammo is best for me.

yes muzzle energy is also very important .

but as you said to me the most important is aim and shot placement , mainly not flinching before the shot. praticing dry firing the gun without ammo and or dummy rounds will prevent flinching before the shot .

in this video below he shot a ballistic dummy head from idk 20-30 meters? he hit the top of the head imo but the bullet destroyed all the head and the jaw bone 6 inches away from where it hit . but this is a win mag rifle the ammo was 2800 fps plus. this also the muzzle energy. so if he can hit the brainstem from 20 meters i can hit it touching my skull. much more energy is with a contact shot and the hot gasses go into the head and brain further exploding the head


Yup that's why I got hollow points, the hot expanding gases following the bullet will also help. I'm going to due it from the side so there's no obstruction from the bullet to the brain as well. The reason I want 10mm velocity is because in my opinion I think it's the perfect velocity and energy range, not too little energy to possible survive and not too much to disfigure my face and destroy my head. I don't want to destroy my skull.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,499
I understand why you'd feel relieved, I wish you the best as well.
 
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