MicahBell
your whole life you’ve followed the wrong star
- Feb 11, 2025
- 109
So many times i thought "this will be the day I die". Obviously ive always been wrong. but i finally feel at peace with it
because theres so many aspects of life i really do love it was hard. Now i can finally see nothing will ever get better for me, the small bits of warmth when the clouds clear a bit doesn't make standing out in the rain worth it. if i live past sunday things are going to get worse for me.
but i made a friend recently. we aren't very close. not close enough they'd miss me. weirdly it has made it easier. just that someone asked me if i wanted to be friends with them has made me feel lighter. like i can die less of a fuck-up because somebody sees worth in me.
i'll be using the night-night method, in a park near my house to avoid traumatising my family. im nervous to fail again but there really is no other option now. im also excited to finally not be trapped in my mind anymore
because theres so many aspects of life i really do love it was hard. Now i can finally see nothing will ever get better for me, the small bits of warmth when the clouds clear a bit doesn't make standing out in the rain worth it. if i live past sunday things are going to get worse for me.
but i made a friend recently. we aren't very close. not close enough they'd miss me. weirdly it has made it easier. just that someone asked me if i wanted to be friends with them has made me feel lighter. like i can die less of a fuck-up because somebody sees worth in me.
i'll be using the night-night method, in a park near my house to avoid traumatising my family. im nervous to fail again but there really is no other option now. im also excited to finally not be trapped in my mind anymore
