i finally bought a rope

[nogoodfatautist]

Well here I am again after about 2 years of not being on here... they say it gets better and yes things have gotten better in a way? Found out I have PCOS and I lost 45 pounds but unfortunately put like 10~ish back on (have no idea the exact number i refuse to get on the scale). But now Im dependent on a handful of pills and supplements just to maintain it... a pillbox at 24 full enough to rival an 80 yr olds. And im still considered obese and have a long way to go. yippee. Got a job thats 90% by myself but the 10% socializing is so unbearable I almost quit so many times and also drove me to finally buy the rope. I actually ordered it while I was on the clock Anyways Im still not sure if I will be using it because my stupid monkey brain is hanging on to the sliver of a chance things will get better. Also the chance of failing and or being sent to hell after death freaks me out. Im just glad I have it now in case. Only thing getting me through the days is Runescape and weed and honestly wouldve ctb long time ago if i didnt start smoking weed. Anyways just shouting into the void lol

 

[FlankerSandwhich]

I'm sorry.

I can't help you, and I don't know your situation, so everything I say is probably meaningless, but I don't think you're a failure. Life is stupid and hard and some of us, it feels like, just aren't born with the right stats for this game. But even still, you've gotten to age 24! I think that's incredible, and I think you're incredible just for trying.

You have your own freedom, and I have no right to stop you from ctb, but just know that this time, your shout into the void was heard. And I'm shouting back