I feel worthless

[naenae28]

I am in so much pain emotionally. I spent the last year entertaining my ex, thinking we would be life long friends. I drove on road trips to visit and to make plans and put in efforts. She never did the same for me but her reasoning was she wasn't ready for anyone to have access to her emotionally. I can see now a year later how dumb I was for doing this. I planned a whole vacation for her and her son for her birthday. I wanted her to feel special. I offered to take her to dinner for a birthday dinner occasion. She agreed. After wards, she texted me saying maybe next time we can spend more time together. 2 weeks later she texts me telling me she wants to cut ties. A week after that I find out she met someone and they rotate weekends on visiting each other . I feel so worthless. I'm in so much pain I don't know how to make it stop. I just want to die. I've gone through this before and it feels awful. I love her with all my being and all I wanted was a genuine friendship. I don't think I'll ever recover from this. Here's a picture of the surprise birthday for reference.

 

[Life'sA6itch]

I feel badly for you. The only thing you can do is move on from her. Sadly, some people will string others along or simply use them for whatever it is that they want. Other times the person's feelings may have genuinely changed and they don't want to hurt yours so they cut ties, ghost you, etc. Still other times some people truly don't feel they deserve the attention or care and will make a way out for themselves. That is a lovely gesture, just let her be. Focus on other things and people and with time you may see things about her that you didn't notice while in the thick of it.