Venting I feel so empty and I hate myself

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Hello, this is my first ever post on SaSu! :)

I'm sure this is an issue many people have, so I would like to see what you guys think. I am completely lost in a never ending cycle of emptiness and exhaustion.. No matter how hard I try to do anything, I fail horribly. I really want to live up to the expectations and level of others.. but every time I'm left feeling like there's something wrong with only me and I should just CTB. In recent times, I have completely lost the will to do anything at all, and let the days go by while I just lay in bed and do nothing. I look at others, even just average people and wonder what quality everyone else has that I don't. Why can't I be as good as them? And as this cycle repeats, I start to hate myself more and more and at this point I've completely lost who I was, now turned into an utter failure in life, and I don't know if I should keep going.

 

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Im dealing with similar feelings since ive lost basically everything in the span of a couple months because of my own failures and my world has been flipped upside down everyone around me has such high expectations and ill never meet them. its hard to even do things i used to like because it just feels so empty. theres things i want to do but cant really find the motivation. I at least just try to do small things even if its just getting up to go eat or brush my teeth or go to work its not been easy. especially when things just seem to blow up in my face. Im still processing my complicated confused feelings and have considered multiple times and might if things truly wont work out. I cant give any advice since im still working on it myself but just wanted to at least let you know you arent alone in having such thoughts and feelings even if they arent exactly alike.