i feel so bad for my cats

[moths]

i imagine no human in my life is really going to miss me too terribly. and even if they do, theyll get over it easily when they realize how much better their lives are without the burden of my presence. without taking care of me out of pity. i honestly wish theyd all just leave already. it would make going through with this a lot easier. but regardless my cats are really the one thing keeping me here, for now. i know they really love me and i love them too. i love them so much. i just feel so so guilty thinking about how theyre going to feel when they wake up one day and im gone, never to be seen again. and at first theyll probably assume im just staying at a friends house or something. but the days will go by and ill never come back. and theyll never understand. theyll never really know what happened to me. that must be so confusing and terrifying. i wish there was a way i could explain it to them, that i could prepare them for it. but i cant.

 

[NMOP3PISdn]

Before you CTB i suggests rehoming them to someone who would love to have cats. If someone can take them together then even better. They will have a good life.

 

[_elliott]

how old are your cats? maybe you can try waiting it out for them? or is there anyone you trust who can take them?

 

[moths]

Before you CTB i suggests rehoming them to someone who would love to have cats. If someone can take them together then even better. They will have a good life.

i still live with my mom and she loves them too so theyll be well taken care of physically. but since im pretty much always home i spend a lot of time with them and im just afraid theyll be confused and miss me. i hope cats dont think on that level and once they realize theyre still being taken care of theyll get over it.

 

[NMOP3PISdn]

i still live with my mom and she loves them too so theyll be well taken care of physically. but since im pretty much always home i spend a lot of time with them and im just afraid theyll be confused and miss me. i hope cats dont think on that level and once they realize theyre still being taken care of theyll get over it.

I'm sure they will miss you a lot but keep in mind that cats are very independent and I'm sure they will be fine after some time. If they will be staying at the same house then it will be even easier for them to cope.
If you ask me, they might even know how you've been feeling lately and probably understand your situation more than anyone in your life. Animals have this weird way of sensing emotions. I think it's something that humans have lost to adapt from the way we have evolved.

 

[moths]

how old are your cats? maybe you can try waiting it out for them? or is there anyone you trust who can take them?

one of them is 12 but the other one is only 5. i imagine theyll both be alive for years to come as theyre both quite healthy. my mom will take care of them but im afraid theyll miss me. i suppose i wont be here to see it so i shouldnt worry but i still feel bad.
also unrelated but nice profile pic. i love elliott smith. although i'll admit i haven't heard nearly all of his music i've always felt a strange connection to him. there's a good chance the last hour will be the last song i listen to before i ctb. or at least one of his songs.

I'm sure they will miss you a lot but keep in mind that cats are very independent and I'm sure they will be fine after some time. If they will be staying at the same house then it will be even easier for them to cope.
If you ask me, they might even know how you've been feeling lately and probably understand your situation more than anyone in your life. Animals have this weird way of sensing emotions. I think it's something that humans have lost to adapt from the way we have evolved.

thank you this made me feel a lot better :)

 

[NMOP3PISdn]

one of them is 12 but the other one is only 5. i imagine theyll both be alive for years to come as theyre both quite healthy. my mom will take care of them but im afraid theyll miss me. i suppose i wont be here to see it so i shouldnt worry but i still feel bad.
also unrelated but nice profile pic. i love elliott smith. although i'll admit i haven't heard nearly all of his music i've always felt a strange connection to him. there's a good chance the last hour will be the last song i listen to before i ctb. or at least one of his songs.

thank you this made me feel a lot better :)

I also have cats and i watch a lot of informative videos about cats on YouTube. Haha

 

[Smart No More]

I'm with you. I am going to be destroyed to leave my cat. She's so clever. One in a million and almost dog like in many ways. We have a great relationship and she clearly knows sonething is wrong. Part of me want to make arrangements and drop her with a heavily vetted new owner before I CTB But the other half of me wants to let her stay until I CTB so that she knows I'm gone and doesn't think I gave her away. I'm the only person she ever trusts and I respected her boundaries so she kind of let me in. Cats always go to that one person who isn't trying to bother them. Particularly the stand offish ones. So yeah her seeing me hand her over would leave her pining for me and she would eventually get out and try to find her way home. At least if she knows I died she will be sad but will be happy for the fact that somebody came and gave her a lifeline. I wiil write detailed instructions and there are vids of us walking the grounds together as we did daily before I got sick and immobilised. It's such a heart wrencher so I have to find her a good home that will take her once I pass. Bless her, my lil buddy.

 

[_elliott]

one of them is 12 but the other one is only 5. i imagine theyll both be alive for years to come as theyre both quite healthy. my mom will take care of them but im afraid theyll miss me. i suppose i wont be here to see it so i shouldnt worry but i still feel bad.
also unrelated but nice profile pic. i love elliott smith. although i'll admit i haven't heard nearly all of his music i've always felt a strange connection to him. there's a good chance the last hour will be the last song i listen to before i ctb. or at least one of his songs.

thank you this made me feel a lot better :)

elliott smith is wonderful. his original version of miss misery is the one on my ctb playlist. i wish you and your cats the best hun

 

[moths]

elliott smith is wonderful. his original version of miss misery is the one on my ctb playlist. i wish you and your cats the best hun

thank you :)

 

[motyxia]

Cats grieve. (So do many other nonhuman animals.) Not all, since they're all individuals, & how their behaviour might change & how long they'll feel that way depends on the cat too. I suggest reading up on companion animal mourning & what signs your mother should look out for. If you're leaving a note of some kind I think you should tell her about how to help them if they need it in case she's not aware. If you're not I guess you could say "check out this interesting thing I learnt today about cats grieving" & hopefully she'll remember

I'd encourage you to stick around until they die but ik that's hard. As long as you have someone you can trust to properly take care of them which you do.

I can relate. I have a bunny daughter. My CTB would effect her a lot, bunnies in general more than cats. Bunnies are misunderstood, nobody knows the basics of taking care of them nor do they care when you try to educate them. I trust no one to take care of her properly. They'll just imprison her in a cage & feed her shit that makes her sick. They won't respect her personal space & need for calm. Since bunnies are prey animals it takes a lot for them to bond with a human, rehoming is traumatic for them. & I adopted her so she already went through shit from where she came from. There's some activists I can maybe trust, but I refuse to do it unless I have full proof a really bad emergency is going to happen, last resort.

 

[FuneralCry]

I have a cat as well. Animals are better than humans and having a pet is one of the only good things about being alive. At least you have someone to take care of your cats, but I understand why you feel the way you do. I wish you the best.