Venting I feel so alone that I can hear emptiness reverberating in my mind.

[assisted]

I am in the unhappiest relationship I have ever experienced in my life. They are my only friend. I try so hard, but my efforts never pay off. I'm too autistic. I never knew relationships could be this miserable. Every year, I discover new depths of depression. It has been this way my entire life. I don't understand it. My "love language" is physical touch and I cringe at the touch of my partner. Our communication is so bad that I don't even tell them to stop anymore. I feel utterly helpless.

 

[Ultracheese]

I'm so sorry you're struggling so much. Sending hugs :(

 

[Antibiotic]

Sounds like you really care about them but you're also really struggling if you can't communicate that then it's just going to get worse between you two and if you can't communicate with them at all it might be time to let them go for yours and they're own good
I really hope things get better for you and you can work it out though