It just feels like no matter how much I try nothing will ever change. It's pointless, I'm not capable of change. I always return to the same patterns of thought. I'm just chasing high after high and as painful as it would be I know damn well I'd enjoy bleeding out in the bathtub if I ever did that.
It'd be a good way to go, to feel that peace in my last moments. It's all I could ask for.
Ever since I was a child, my only dream in life has been to end it. Nothing else keeps me engaged, everything gets old within seconds. I'm tired of this feeling, I want it all to be over, I don't want to be here just to suffer every day
It'd be a good way to go, to feel that peace in my last moments. It's all I could ask for.
Ever since I was a child, my only dream in life has been to end it. Nothing else keeps me engaged, everything gets old within seconds. I'm tired of this feeling, I want it all to be over, I don't want to be here just to suffer every day
