Venting I feel like I’m completely alone

[eaturdirt]

I'm a girl that lives in the Netherlands and I've truly never met someone before who struggles with the same things I do. I feel completely alone in my suffering and it's so bad that it makes me feel psychically sick. I almost have no friends and everything feels hard to do because of my autism + I recently got out of a relationship with a very narcissistic and toxic guy who I still really long for. It feels like I can't live if I'm not with him but I also kind of know that that's the manipulation speaking. It's just too hard for me to keep living honestly. I wish everything could go back to the way it was. It's probably never going to get better again and I don't have the strength to hold on.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Welcome to the forum! I think you will find others here who struggle with similar problems!

When you have a few more messages you will also be able to use the chat.

 

[Helween]

Welcome, i recently got out of a relationship too, an autistic girl that i love with all my heart with the ups and down, she started to forgot about us as soon a she met new people at her work and decided that i wasn't enough anymore. i dont have any "friends" here since i moved in to live with her and every true mutual friends we had ghosted us because she was too harsh on them. i had to cut a lot of past friendships because she said they were too present in my life. Now i'm like a ghost to her, we barely talk beside the fact that she said that she really want to be with me, love me and all. i never felt like my feelings mattered in our relationship. I dont have the strenght nor the will to move on, so i understand how you feel truly.

 

[eaturdirt]

Welcome, i recently got out of a relationship too, an autistic girl that i love with all my heart with the ups and down, she started to forgot about us as soon a she met new people at her work and decided that i wasn't enough anymore. i dont have any "friends" here since i moved in to live with her and every true mutual friends we had ghosted us because she was too harsh on them. i had to cut a lot of past friendships because she said they were too present in my life. Now i'm like a ghost to her, we barely talk beside the fact that she said that she really want to be with me, love me and all. i never felt like my feelings mattered in our relationship. I dont have the strenght nor the will to move on, so i understand how you feel truly.

Thank you for sharing, it feels a bit relieving to know that there's someone out there that understands how I feel. It's so tiring though, I'm sorry you're feeling this way as well. You can always talk to me

 

[Helween]

Thank you for sharing, it feels a bit relieving to know that there's someone out there that understands how I feel. It's so tiring though, I'm sorry you're feeling this way as well. You can always talk to me

Feel free to reach out too if you need advice or just wanna talk/vent ~ , i know how lonely it can be out there.

 

[xinino]

U have yourself, embrace it.

 

[arnxxx]

I'm a girl that lives in the Netherlands and I've truly never met someone before who struggles with the same things I do. I feel completely alone in my suffering and it's so bad that it makes me feel psychically sick. I almost have no friends and everything feels hard to do because of my autism + I recently got out of a relationship with a very narcissistic and toxic guy who I still really long for. It feels like I can't live if I'm not with him but I also kind of know that that's the manipulation speaking. It's just too hard for me to keep living honestly. I wish everything could go back to the way it was. It's probably never going to get better again and I don't have the strength to hold on.

Im from the Netherlands too and I feel your pain. It's so hard to explain even to therapists how I feel. Feels like I'm alone in my suffering.

Do you have activities that make you feel less terrible? And are you getting psychological help by a professional? You say stuff won't get better but you have to admit you don't know that for sure.

 

[eaturdirt]

Im from the Netherlands too and I feel your pain. It's so hard to explain even to therapists how I feel. Feels like I'm alone in my suffering.

Do you have activities that make you feel less terrible? And are you getting psychological help by a professional? You say stuff won't get better but you have to admit you don't know that for sure.

I used to crochet, knit and draw on my iPad but I've noticed that I'm even too tired to do those things now. And yes, I have two psychologists and I'm on medication. I like to travel as well so I'm going to Canada and Paris soon. I know that I don't know for sure if stuff will get better, but I'm too tired to hold on. I've planned that I'll end it after my travels. I feel so incredibly lonely.