Venting I feel like I want to ctb to send a message

[KillingPain267]

To tell the people who hated me, bullied me, rejected me etc. that actions have consequences on others. I kind of wish to send a digital suicide letter to people who've hurt me even decades ago. People who may have forgotten about it and me, but will be reminded that their bullying has stuck in my brain for life. I don't know, my death should mean something. I want those people to be tormented psychologically for life, like they did to me. I don't know, maybe I'm just evil, well then I deserve to die even more.

 

[botanormal]

Hey, it's not evil to wish the people who hurt you felt the consequences of their actions. I think it's completely natural to be thinking like that, and I'm sure there are many people out there who killed themselves with the exact same hope. I often think about that too, but I also wonder how much the people who intentionally hurt me would really care if I told them I was ending my life over them. If they lacked the empathy to care when it happened, then perhaps the same would be true after dying too. I'm just sorry that you had to experience that kind of pain at all. You didn't deserve even a second of it, and you certainly don't deserve to die.

 

[KillingPain267]

Hey, it's not evil to wish the people who hurt you felt the consequences of their actions. I think it's completely natural to be thinking like that, and I'm sure there are many people out there who killed themselves with the exact same hope. I often think about that too, but I also wonder how much the people who intentionally hurt me would really care if I told them I was ending my life over them. If they lacked the empathy to care when it happened, then perhaps the same would be true after dying too. I'm just sorry that you had to experience that kind of pain at all. You didn't deserve even a second of it, and you certainly don't deserve to die.

I wish it could come in the news or something. A message to all of what bullying can permanently do to a person. Hopefully my suicide will act to make the world better.

 

[botanormal]

I wish it could come in the news or something. A message to all of what bullying can permanently do to a person. Hopefully my suicide will act to make the world better.

I truly understand why you feel that way & your desire for it. Personally I believe the world would be a little less good to have lost you. But regardless of the rest of the world, I just hope you're able to have your feelings eased, you deserve much more than to be in pain.