I feel like I am going to my real home soon.

[Lost Magic]

I never felt part of this world, never felt 'normal' whatever the fuck that is. I just never wanted to be here in the first place. I feel that the afterlife and whatever that holds is where I am supposed to be. I'm going home soon.



I hope some of you listen to this piece. It's very heartfelt and emotional.

 

[death137]

I feel you

This one youtuber said "I may be in this world but I don't feel I'm of this world"

 

[Lost Magic]

I feel you

This one youtuber said "I may be in this world but I don't feel I'm of this world"

Amen to those feelings. I can totally relate.

 

[Of The Universe]

Amen to those feelings. I can totally relate.

Paul,I enjoy your posts. Wish you well!

 

[Lost Magic]

Paul,I enjoy your posts. Wish you well!

Thank You! Same to you!

 

[MegaGordo]

I hear you. Some people are more evolved, more sensitive than the majority of the troglodyte gene pool surrounding us. Bad, Darwinian competition everywhere. Even on the hwy where that man or woman just HAS to cut in front of you to be first at the next red light. It's like a prison yard or asylum to which we've been sent, for the most part. I also think that's the appeal of all those zombie enterprises..the protagonists all exhibit human, identifiable attributes; the zombies are just the opposite. Vicious, sociopathic, rapacious.

Hope you stick around for a bit more, my friend. You're my favorite Bailey's pitch man!

 

[wanttogetonthebus]

I never felt part of this world, never felt 'normal' whatever the fuck that is. I just never wanted to be here in the first place. I feel that the afterlife and whatever that holds is where I am supposed to be. I'm going home soon.



I hope some of you listen to this piece. It's very heartfelt and emotional.

Thanks for sharing and I'm so sorry you've had to go through all this There are no words for it.
I honestly don't think a single person deserved to get thrown on a rock to toil and suffer. I hope peace and comfort will come to you going forward. If there's anything I can do, you can always reach out to me.

 

[Lost Magic]

I hear you. Some people are more evolved, more sensitive than the majority of the troglodyte gene pool surrounding us. Bad, Darwinian competition everywhere. Even on the hwy where that man or woman just HAS to cut in front of you to be first at the next red light. It's like a prison yard or asylum to which we've been sent, for the most part. I also think that's the appeal of all those zombie enterprises..the protagonists all exhibit human, identifiable attributes; the zombies are just the opposite. Vicious, sociopathic, rapacious.

Hope you stick around for a bit more, my friend. You're my favorite Bailey's pitch man!

Agreed, The world is just too wild for me now and it deeply saddens me how failed the human race has become. lol, I might stick around for a Bailey's this weekend, since it has been brought up quite a bit lately haha. Cheers!

 

[MegaGordo]

Agreed, The world is just too wild for me now and it deeply saddens me how failed the human race has become. lol, I might stick around for a Bailey's this weekend, since it has been brought up quite a bit lately haha. Cheers!

Yeah, the political class sickens me, the pundits are all propagandists, and meanwhile the Ukrainians are being subjected to most hideous crimes (physical/sexual torture--even of young kids), wholesale massacres of civilians--and let's remember, MANY of Ukraine's fighting forces ARE civilians simply defending their homes and cities. It's disgusting the U.S. doesn't grow a pair and get planes and air defenses there. Get in Putin's face. The nukes are gonna fly within a decade undoubtedly anyway. We need to take an active moral stance for once.

Sorry, it's just always on my mind, in my dreams. This world and nature and our fellow animals would all be so much better sans our defective species. Okay, that's the weather; back to you, Paul.

 

[Lost Magic]

Yeah, the political class sickens me, the pundits are all propagandists, and meanwhile the Ukrainians are being subjected to most hideous crimes (physical/sexual torture--even of young kids), wholesale massacres of civilians--and let's remember, MANY of Ukraine's fighting forces ARE civilians simply defending their homes and cities. It's disgusting the U.S. doesn't grow a pair and get planes and air defenses there. Get in Putin's face. The nukes are gonna fly within a decade undoubtedly anyway. We need to take an active moral stance for once.

Sorry, it's just always on my mind, in my dreams. This world and nature and our fellow animals would all be so much better sans our defective species. Okay, that's the weather; back to you, Paul.

yeah, the whole Ukrainian war situation is beyond horrifying. Putin needs to be taken out of office, somehow and tried for war crimes. This sets a terrible precedence for the rest of the world if he and his army never stand trial. Nukes have to be stripped from every country that have them. I believe The US and Russia have the most at the moment. We now see that they are used to hold the other countries hostage because of the fear of WW3. Like you said, it will most likely happen anyway, unless these 'United Nation' gets a grip on things. I'm hoping to be out of this world before the bombs drop, but anything is possible at this stage.

 

[MegaGordo]

Wish it were different, but then we've got the Saudis and the North Koreans, the Indians, the Pakistanis, the Israelis, the dealth-cult Evangelical whackjobs,the Soviet satellite states, rogue terror networks. We'll be damn lucky if climate catastrophe or an asteroid take us out before the nukes are launched. But I feel, since their development, our fate has been sealed.

Wish it were different, but then we've got the Saudis and the North Koreans, the Indians, the Pakistanis, the Israelis, the dealth-cult Evangelical whackjobs,the Soviet satellite states, rogue terror networks. We'll be damn lucky if climate catastrophe or an asteroid take us out before the nukes are launched. But I feel, since their development, our fate has been sealed.

Lest I forget to implicate the U.S., which is the only country to have actually used them--unnecessarily--in Japan. The Emperor was already willing to surrender. Very well-documented. We did it and incinerated masses of civilians to keep Russia in its place. We made our own bed with the "Devil."

 

[VoidDesirer22]

I never felt part of this world, never felt 'normal' whatever the fuck that is. I just never wanted to be here in the first place. I feel that the afterlife and whatever that holds is where I am supposed to be. I'm going home soon.



I hope some of you listen to this piece. It's very heartfelt and emotional.

Paulstrong, you have been great to have around.

I have gained from a lot of your posts in information and enjoyment.
I love the song you attached. I think I will request that it is played at my funeral.

Thank you. You deserve peace.

 

[Lost Magic]

Paulstrong, you have been great to have around.

I have gained from a lot of your posts in information and enjoyment.
I love the song you attached. I think I will request that it is played at my funeral.

Thank you. You deserve peace.

You too have been a comfort to have around. You also deserve great peace. thank you!

Glad you enjoyed the song btw. It is indeed, beautiful.

 

[Lullaby]

I had a dream almost two years ago that I'll never forget, which is not typical for me at all. When I wake up, I forget my dreams within a few minutes but this one was super vivid.

I woke up in a cute, white house in the desert and I had a bunch of roommates, who all of different races, ethnicities; some even had accents, and they were all so happy to see me and were welcoming me back like I had been on a long vacation.

I know it's impossible to see a face you've never seen before, but I had literally no idea who any of these people were. It felt like I was where I was supposed to me and these people felt like family.

Then I remember waking up crying, just completely distraught. I was really upset that I wasn't there anymore.

I'm rambling right now lol but seeing this thread reminded me of that dream. I always get the feeling of missing home, even when I'm there…but that place genuinely felt like it.

 

[Lost Magic]

I had a dream almost two years ago that I'll never forget, which is not typical for me at all. When I wake up, I forget my dreams within a few minutes but this one was super vivid.

I woke up in a cute, white house in the desert and I had a bunch of roommates, who all of different races, ethnicities; some even had accents, and they were all so happy to see me and were welcoming me back like I had been on a long vacation.

I know it's impossible to see a face you've never seen before, but I had literally no idea who any of these people were. It felt like I was where I was supposed to me and these people felt like family.

Then I remember waking up crying, just completely distraught. I was really upset that I wasn't there anymore.

I'm rambling right now lol but seeing this thread reminded me of that dream. I always get the feeling of missing home, even when I'm there…but that place genuinely felt like it.

Sounds like an awesome dream of unity and belonging. I know what you mean. It's a jarring feeling when you are woke up out of an existence and community you know you should be with, only to wake up to the painful reality of life. Bless you!

 

[GreenTree]

Gonna miss you Paul strong. Weird how we get too like people despite never having met. Seams so many good people on here. I always think why us. Why do we have to have this hell. Hope you stay around as enjoy your posts. I understand your pain though mate.

 

[bad luck]

May your journey be peaceful. I also have that feeling of not belonging to this world

 

[FuneralCry]

I have never felt as though I am meant for this world as well, I belong in the eternal nothingness. The thought of dying brings me a lot of comfort. I hope you find peace and relief from suffering in whatever happens.

 

[bigbeatmanifesto]

I'm fading with the daylight to skies of grey
I'm waiting on the cosmos to call my name
And someday it will, oh, someday it will
I'm sick of writing sad songs to hide my shame
'Cause I need more than drugs to escape my pain
But someday I will, oh, someday I will

 

[Al_stargate]

I had this feeling as well in recent days of not belonging here and needing to go. The feeling of complete detachment is how I would describe it. Hope it will be better for me on the other side than this shit I'm dealing with now.

 

[km0990]

I never felt part of this world, never felt 'normal' whatever the fuck that is. I just never wanted to be here in the first place. I feel that the afterlife and whatever that holds is where I am supposed to be. I'm going home soon.



I hope some of you listen to this piece. It's very heartfelt and emotional.

Have you ever heard of the term Starseed, basically it talks about how not of this world