i feel increasingly more peace in my soul with every additional step i take towards getting ready to catch the bus

[SufferingInDenmark]

we all have some stuff we need to take care of first before actually suiciding...
and i won't say i'm VERY close now.
but idk, it just feels good to know that i'll probably have peace at the end of this year, or maybe 2026.
no fuck it, let me just commit to 2025...
see, i'm still not 100% there, i guess lol.

but i just took another step, and it gave me a calming sensation to know that eventually i will get peace.

 

[Karera]

What are sort of things you've heard from people before they planned to ctb? I feel like there wouldn't be a lot, at least for me, maybe just organize my room and stuff and have one last meal that I enjoy a lot or.. -something..

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

What are sort of things you've heard from people before they planned to ctb? I feel like there wouldn't be a lot, at least for me, maybe just organize my room and stuff and have one last meal that I enjoy a lot or.. -something..

well, idk how old you are.
but many people wanna make sure about their finances and be sure their money will go to the best place/people possible.
and if you're beefing with someone, maybe squash the beef.
shit like that...

 

[Karera]

well, idk how old you are.
but many people wanna make sure about their finances and be sure their money will go to the best place/people possible.
and if you're beefing with someone, maybe squash the beef.
shit like that...

I'm 18, couldn't care less about my finances, but what you're saying I could get, -glad that your mind isn't shrouded in dread (or maybe it is..) and that you're making those steps toward your own peace.

 

[777cave]

For some reason the most important thing to me is trying to get the house in decent shape. With every little thing I do I feel more peaceful and satisfied.
I guess it doesn't have to make sense to anyone but me.

 

[itsoverforme303]

I plan to end my life in the next week or so. I am scared and nervous. But at the same time, it's kind of peaceful. I know the pain will be over. I am spending more money on food that I normally do. Eating well, drinking. I can do whatever I want because I am beyond consequences now.

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

I plan to end my life in the next week or so. I am scared and nervous. But at the same time, it's kind of peaceful. I know the pain will be over. I am spending more money on food that I normally do. Eating well, drinking. I can do whatever I want because I am beyond consequences now.

exactly. i hope you won't have to do it, and that things will be fixed for you, tho.
i don't knwo your circumstance, but i just like to say that in general.
but what method have you decided on if i may ask?

 

[itsoverforme303]

exactly. i hope you won't have to do it, and that things will be fixed for you, tho.
i don't knwo your circumstance, but i just like to say that in general.
but what method have you decided on if i may ask?

I haven't decided anything yet but I am thinking about jumping. Hopefully it kills me. If it doesn't, we'll, y'all won't hear from me anyway lol.

 

[Lo$t95]

we all have some stuff we need to take care of first before actually suiciding...
and i won't say i'm VERY close now.
but idk, it just feels good to know that i'll probably have peace at the end of this year, or maybe 2026.
no fuck it, let me just commit to 2025...
see, i'm still not 100% there, i guess lol.

but i just took another step, and it gave me a calming sensation to know that eventually i will get peace.

I had that feeling for a while. The relief yeah it was amazing but please take my advice and prepare for SI. When you get close to the date it hits really hard and doesn't stop. Come up with some plan for your last days will take your mind completely off CTB otherwise it will completely dominate your headspace.

 

[chainsofjudecca]

I plan to donate most of my belongings to a local thrift shop (not Goodwill) and it brings me a sense of peace. The last bit of good I can do with this worthless life.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just wish for peace as well, to be permanently at peace from this existence is all I hope for but anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the relief you search for.

 

[Thomas599]

I agree with your initial statement. I have had my three bottles of Pento. for a couple of years now and it brings me a great deal of comfort just knowing that it is nicely put away, way back in the back , back of the closet and it is there if ever I choose that the time is right.

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

I agree with your initial statement. I have had my three bottles of Pento. for a couple of years now and it brings me a great deal of comfort just knowing that it is nicely put away, way back in the back , back of the closet and it is there if ever I choose that the time is right.

exactly. what is pento tho? i googled it, is it a sleep medicine? and how lethal is it?