Venting I feel horrible.

[Deathiswelcomed]

I've been bed rotting and just not getting out much if at all since the year started amd a few months before the start of the school year. I havent been feeling the best ive been losing weight I weighed 92 pounds before gaining 4 pounds just recently that im now losing again. My legs havent been doing well since I cant stand for long without feeling like my legs will give out like they did before. I cant sleep without waking up shaking almost aggressively if not and out of it I feel light headed and dizzy especially since my sister constantly punches me in the head or my body which leaves me in pain for hours if not sore for a few days.. I constantly feel the urge to ctb but not sure if I want to just cut my wrist or if I want to try hanging.. ive tried to od over 10 times and havent succeeded only woke up the next day extremely out of it and feeling really unwell I really hate this and I hate myself my mom didn't want me my daddy even od. I just cant take all of the stuff that constantly happens anymore.. the world is so cruel I just want to end it but I am scared that I will fail again and get sent off to a mental hospital..

 

[Deathiswelcomed]

Did you consider jumping off of building? See if you have the strength to research properly before doing anything

Sending love.
I sincerely your burden is pardoned.

Yes i have considered jumping off of a building before many times actually but I barley ever leave home and I dont know where any tall buildings are nearby. The though of somehow surviving a fall from so high up is not a possibility I want as well.

I will research properly before doing anything of course and I hope things look up for you

 

[WhyMe123]

What did you try to OD on? Some things are more reliable than others but I'd assume you researched that..

Nonetheless if you wanted to share, it might be good learning for others on what may not work..

I've also been looking into partial hanging since for me jumping off a building is super scary and I don't want my body to be seen by a bunch of people on the street..
Have you considered this method?