TheHatedOne
Death is salvation
- Sep 26, 2021
- 2,028
I'm not welcomed anywhere, no one wants me, nothing is going well, all that happens is only problems over problems adding up and I just want to drink myself to death. Fuck everything.
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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,563
I understand, life really is a horrible thing. It can be a hopeless feeling when everything seems to be getting worse. I find it frustrating that we have to exist in the first place. I'm sorry you are suffering. I wish you the best.
Darkmoon Queen
Specialist
- Apr 1, 2020
- 396
I don't feel welcome anywhere either but when I sit back and observe with a clearer head, I realise that everyone within most given groups are constantly lying to each other. So it all becomes a bit ridiculous..
I know that doesn't make it better. Sort of makes it worse really because if not even they can be happy with their low standards, what hope is there for us, right
I know that doesn't make it better. Sort of makes it worse really because if not even they can be happy with their low standards, what hope is there for us, right
arie
yeah idk anymore
- May 21, 2021
- 71
Drinking yourself to death sounds like the dream. Hope everything will be better soon <3
LastLoveLetter
Persephone
- Mar 28, 2021
- 654
I am sorry you are going through this, being unwanted everywhere you go is an awful feeling.
I can relate. I always feel alienated and ostracised. There is no escape from it, it is suffocating.
SS and Discord are the closest I have felt to being wanted and welcomed, but never entirely. I still feel shunned sometimes, at other times barely tolerated and always like I burden people no matter how much I try to do the opposite.
I question if I should simply disappear and let myself be completely alone by cutting off my internet connection and - in doing so - all remaining ties to the outside world.
Perhaps then I can die, and finally forever be at rest. No more trauma. No more pain. No more loneliness. No more suffering. Just sleep.
I can relate. I always feel alienated and ostracised. There is no escape from it, it is suffocating.
SS and Discord are the closest I have felt to being wanted and welcomed, but never entirely. I still feel shunned sometimes, at other times barely tolerated and always like I burden people no matter how much I try to do the opposite.
I question if I should simply disappear and let myself be completely alone by cutting off my internet connection and - in doing so - all remaining ties to the outside world.
Perhaps then I can die, and finally forever be at rest. No more trauma. No more pain. No more loneliness. No more suffering. Just sleep.
Since I was a kid.. yeah. I don't even try anymore.
TheHatedOne
Death is salvation
- Sep 26, 2021
- 2,028
I don't feel welcomed even on SS I just wanna punch myself at this point for being this cursed. I hate myself for being a coward.
I'm sorry you're suffering and feel excluded socially. It's the worse to be lonely. Whatever you do. Don't turn to alcohol to cope it. It was my worse mistake ever trust me I abused it since age 23 and abused it worse since age 26-27 don't do it. I hope you find ways to cope the pain I'm sorry you have to endure this
TheHatedOne
Death is salvation
- Sep 26, 2021
- 2,028
Alcohol is the only thing that helps me. I don't care what happens with me.
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forgotten15
Specialist
- Aug 24, 2021
- 332
I am sorry you are going through this. I can relate so well, never was a part of anything and others were always preferred but not me.
I realise most relationships are quite superficial and in the end no matter what people will always put themselves first, but I can't deny being left out and alone doesn't hurt.
I realise most relationships are quite superficial and in the end no matter what people will always put themselves first, but I can't deny being left out and alone doesn't hurt.
Midgardsorm
Paragon
- Apr 28, 2020
- 917
Another curse bearer. The world has been hard on us, hasn't it?
For some of us, there is still a dangerous thing called Hope. It's like a crystal that shines very bright, but if it's shattered, the shards cut deeper than the sharpest blade ever.
You deserve better than this. I've seen your posts and you seem a very kind and nice person.
I wish that you have better luck than me. May your hope is not shattered and fills you with love. You can talk, people here are kind, we will listen. I gladly will.
Wish you the best.
Be well, friend.
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mousebot
Member
- Oct 11, 2021
- 40
I know what you mean. Ive just accepted i dont belong anywhere by now. Ive always wanted to be part of something, and like feel like an actual person, but ive given up to be honest
