Venting I feel envy seeing people succesfully CTB + attempting

[merryberry]

I'm sorry for not answering dms, I've changed my medication and have had long isolation periods

I plan to overdose this week with bottles of red wine, ketipinor, passion flower and melatonin. I am aware this may not kill me. I have OD'd a lot before but this time I'll take so much much more, I like to self-harm and the feeling of mixed use so I don't mind much. I'm a girl and relatively light too. My wellbeing has decreased to such a level that I frequently watch gore. Doing the methods doesn't seem so bad in those videos but I don't yet have much resources to guaranteedly CTB

I have thought of hanging but have found no suitable place to hang. I have also thought of jumping off a high building and have seen it's quite painless, but there are no good places for it. Near where I live are a lot of kids so I don't want them to see my body obviously

I'm just so lonely irl that I vent by destroying my notebook with a red pen and my blood. I'll see if I end up in the psych ward or something lol

 

[FuneralCry]

I also envy them as all I hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for the peace of non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten and I can rest, I see it as so cruel how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to finally escape from suffering in this cruel, torturous existence.

 

[thebiggestduck17]

i feel this. I live in a smallish city so there's no big buildings I can climb up and jump off, Im struggling to buy sn, and I have no where to hang :c at least I know I'll die someday, I just have to make sure it happens as soon as possible

 

[purplesky9]

I'm sorry for not answering dms, I've changed my medication and have had long isolation periods

I plan to overdose this week with bottles of red wine, ketipinor, passion flower and melatonin. I am aware this may not kill me. I have OD'd a lot before but this time I'll take so much much more, I like to self-harm and the feeling of mixed use so I don't mind much. I'm a girl and relatively light too. My wellbeing has decreased to such a level that I frequently watch gore. Doing the methods doesn't seem so bad in those videos but I don't yet have much resources to guaranteedly CTB

I have thought of hanging but have found no suitable place to hang. I have also thought of jumping off a high building and have seen it's quite painless, but there are no good places for it. Near where I live are a lot of kids so I don't want them to see my body obviously

I'm just so lonely irl that I vent by destroying my notebook with a red pen and my blood. I'll see if I end up in the psych ward or something lol

I also envy successful those that can successfully CBT. I have considered lots of different methods but can't find one that will be successful for me. I feel like I can't die and I'll be stuck here for all eternity suffering.

 

[deathisapanacea]

I also envy successful those that can successfully CBT. I have considered lots of different methods but can't find one that will be successful for me. I feel like I can't die and I'll be stuck here for all eternity suffering.

Same situation with me pal. I am afraid I am gonna outlive all those pro life folks around me.

 

[purplesky9]

Same situation with me pal. I am afraid I am gonna outlive all those pro life folks around me.

It is my worst nightmare. I just want to find some way I can escape from this world.

 

[Cauliflour]

I plan to overdose this week with bottles of red wine, ketipinor, passion flower and melatonin.

That's...certainly a combination. Are you sure that's actually gonna work though? Seems like a bit of an odd mix but then again you could me a mixologist for all I know. I have a strong feeling that won't kill you but instead fuck up your health for a long period of time. I'm a not a scientist but mixing random stuff together to be eaten never tends to go well.

I'm just so lonely irl that I vent by destroying my notebook with a red pen and my blood. I'll see if I end up in the psych ward or something lol

Do you have photos of these notebooks? I'm curious to see what that looks like. If you want to, of course, no pressure.

 

[kitkat9234]

I also envy successful those that can successfully CBT. I have considered lots of different methods but can't find one that will be successful for me. I feel like I can't die and I'll be stuck here for all eternity suffering.

Same.

 

[_Maya]

I wish i had the courage to actually go through with it, i keep saying "I'll do it tonight" to myself but when night actually comes, i just curl up in my bed and postpone it.