rotthjärta
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- Apr 24, 2026
- 38
I didn't know them for long so it makes no sense to but I was thinking it would be a while till their supplies came along but it showed up earlier than expected. Well I knew, they haven't been active or any messages. All you can do is wish they are at peace now. I ended up just getting drunk to have those thoughts fuck off, keep life moving.
Does make me slightly think, I don't discourage or encourage it. Rather I just allow life to go as it please. There have been times where I've spoken people out of it. I had an ex who liked to attempt every so often and I would cry (though i was 14ish), usually I ended up having to call his parents or friends to go check on him because I lived far. I'm in a relationship and I try to picture a scenario like that to think of what I would do and in some instances I wouldn't mind. Im unsure how to phrase it but there are times where you can see it, the suffering, the way they wake up, they don't belong here.
I mean for myself if my boyfriend decided to leave me well then its fuck it, I don't have any other reason to me here. Some how someone looked at me and said yes. I still want to leave badly. As sad as it is I don't belong here, I don't want to participate. My boyfriend gives me the ability to be comfortable about not having the pressure to be stressed about life even in feeling loved I can't help but know. I know its not completely out of my mind. I know I want to. I know it never ends.
Do you ever feel like you know, some weird sense of intuition, maybe its that emptiness you carry? The future is blurry so unable to be told not from uncertainty of where you will end up but because of such certainty you wont be there, why worry about anything at all.
Oh well peace out to that guy, was nice knowing them.
Does make me slightly think, I don't discourage or encourage it. Rather I just allow life to go as it please. There have been times where I've spoken people out of it. I had an ex who liked to attempt every so often and I would cry (though i was 14ish), usually I ended up having to call his parents or friends to go check on him because I lived far. I'm in a relationship and I try to picture a scenario like that to think of what I would do and in some instances I wouldn't mind. Im unsure how to phrase it but there are times where you can see it, the suffering, the way they wake up, they don't belong here.
I mean for myself if my boyfriend decided to leave me well then its fuck it, I don't have any other reason to me here. Some how someone looked at me and said yes. I still want to leave badly. As sad as it is I don't belong here, I don't want to participate. My boyfriend gives me the ability to be comfortable about not having the pressure to be stressed about life even in feeling loved I can't help but know. I know its not completely out of my mind. I know I want to. I know it never ends.
Do you ever feel like you know, some weird sense of intuition, maybe its that emptiness you carry? The future is blurry so unable to be told not from uncertainty of where you will end up but because of such certainty you wont be there, why worry about anything at all.
Oh well peace out to that guy, was nice knowing them.
