Pomegranate
"To die is gain."
- Jan 21, 2022
- 82
It's been six years of trial and error, with no solution in sight. My mental health is worse than ever. I can't take care of myself, so I live with my family.
But it's starting to feel like they're on the path to abandoning me. They keep talking about wanting to move out and living elsewhere, whether with or without me. My brother is getting married next year or the year after. And my youngest brother is going to start college next semester.
Things are closing in on me, and I'm not ready for the future. I know my family are adults, and they don't have to take care of my needs. Still, I'm disabled and can't make myself food, let alone go to school or work. And I'm forced to continue experiencing this painful existence in an unfeeling universe. I'm scared I might have to live out in the woods and starve to death or die of thirst. I'm so, so scared.
But it's starting to feel like they're on the path to abandoning me. They keep talking about wanting to move out and living elsewhere, whether with or without me. My brother is getting married next year or the year after. And my youngest brother is going to start college next semester.
Things are closing in on me, and I'm not ready for the future. I know my family are adults, and they don't have to take care of my needs. Still, I'm disabled and can't make myself food, let alone go to school or work. And I'm forced to continue experiencing this painful existence in an unfeeling universe. I'm scared I might have to live out in the woods and starve to death or die of thirst. I'm so, so scared.
