I failed my attempt

[Aries]

I overdosed on different drugs and I was found sometime later

 

[Pardoe84]

What kind of drugs did you try?

 

[Aries]

Amitriptyline, benzos and meto

 

[LaVieEnRose]

How soon after were you found? That takes a while to kill, I think around 2 days or something. It's hard to get privacy for that long.

 

[Aries]

But I feels like a peaceful death anyway....I was super unconscious
I'm so done
Annoying
I hate it

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you failed and failed attempts are causing so much additional mental pain. I don't think it needs 48h to ctb with this method. Did you follow the guide?

Amitriptyline guide

Translation from German "Selbstbestimmt Sterben - Handreichung für einen rationalen Suizid (German Edition) Jessica Düber Amitriptyline guide "Tricyclic antidepressants General info Tricyclic antidepressants are psychotropic drugs with a general mood-lifting...

www.sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[The anhedonic one]

It's such a horrible feeling surviving an attempt.
I wish you better luck next time.

 

[yovoyporti]

Sorry that you didnt find your peace, i can only imagine how bad it must feel. Honestly didnt know the method would take so long to kill. Even more i dont understand why people choose these long, slow deaths, its not like you can do "fun" stuff in the meanwhile. Other quicker methods i always find it strange that people get found. Even in a busy household, there must be a window where you have enough time, or drive to a remote place to do it, hotels, empty buildings, inside your car.

 

[FuneralCry]

Failing ctb is exactly what I fear and is what sounds so horrible to me, I hate how we are denied the option to just leave this world in peace, existence is too cruel.

 

[yovoyporti]

Failing ctb is exactly what I fear and is what sounds so horrible to me, I hate how we are denied the option to just leave this world in peace, existence is too cruel.

yea sucks big time, from somone who worked with late stages of ill people, cancer, dementia, even if you see/speak to them and already wanting to exit, the fact it gets denied more often than not. Only to let them suffer for years upping the dosages of painkillers so they become more and more unable to do anything and requiring more care which is already the bare minimum in allot of work spaces i worked. Or the traject they go into when they are mentally stable, only to take so many years for it to be approved till the point they are not deemed mentally stable/viable anymore for such choices to just let them slowly die away.... i believe switzerland has an option for suicide but it cost like 200k, somthing crazy like that i believe. I always felt like it is for the money, even the time we had like specific timing for basic care we gave to the people. Every person is diffrent you cant say you have 5 minutes for this 10 minutes for that. Or only wash them properly when you knew family was coming to visit just so it looks like they were in good hands and getting all the care they needed. Most cases all the people wanted was somone to talk to or getting attention and not half hour a person to than sit them down in a chair and go on smoke breaks and talk bad behind their back. (Talking colleges)

 

[Worndown]

I am sorry you had a failure.
Thank you for letting us know. While you did not benefit this time, your post can help others in the future.

 

[dory]

But I feels like a peaceful death anyway....I was super unconscious
I'm so done
Annoying
I hate it

failing is one of the worst feelings in my opinion especially when it could've went the way you wanted it to. If you do it again I wish you peace and luck

 

[DreamEnd]

Amitriptyline, benzos and meto

How much amitriptyline did you take?

 

[deleted442]

yea sucks big time, from somone who worked with late stages of ill people, cancer, dementia, even if you see/speak to them and already wanting to exit, the fact it gets denied more often than not. Only to let them suffer for years upping the dosages of painkillers so they become more and more unable to do anything and requiring more care which is already the bare minimum in allot of work spaces i worked. Or the traject they go into when they are mentally stable, only to take so many years for it to be approved till the point they are not deemed mentally stable/viable anymore for such choices to just let them slowly die away.... i believe switzerland has an option for suicide but it cost like 200k, somthing crazy like that i believe. I always felt like it is for the money, even the time we had like specific timing for basic care we gave to the people. Every person is diffrent you cant say you have 5 minutes for this 10 minutes for that. Or only wash them properly when you knew family was coming to visit just so it looks like they were in good hands and getting all the care they needed. Most cases all the people wanted was somone to talk to or getting attention and not half hour a person to than sit them down in a chair and go on smoke breaks and talk bad behind their back. (Talking colleges).

Where's the human compassion. I mean it's there but it just doesn't fit the financial narrative. This attracts people who are just in it for the money. The whole system, sky to grave is rigged. People would say "if you don't like it, there's the door".
Yeah I know I've been trying to walk through that door for a while now.
It's a revolving f$€£ing door.

 

[Aries]

And now I'm so weak I can't get out of bed

 

[CTB Dream]

Vry sry, this cruel mthod no work v awfl wrld no allow peace, v sry bed no move

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I'm sorry that the peace you seek is being so elusive. I hope you can get to it one day.

 

[reaching_zer0]

I've failed recently too, i know how hard it is and how lost/disappointed you can be. I wish you to be luckier in anything you will try and to find peace.

 

[Aries]

But I'm quite happy because they told me I was super cold......if only they could leave me for sometime, I would have been gone
So I'm going to plan it next time very well.......I'm so done with all of this
Thank you all
I slept for two days since Sunday. But guys, I guarantee you, it is peaceful. You don't feel a thing

 

[befree]

Have you used this guide?:

Amitriptyline guide

Translation from German "Selbstbestimmt Sterben - Handreichung für einen rationalen Suizid (German Edition) Jessica Düber Amitriptyline guide "Tricyclic antidepressants General info Tricyclic antidepressants are psychotropic drugs with a general mood-lifting...

www.sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[Wants-To-End]

But I feels like a peaceful death anyway....I was super unconscious
I'm so done
Annoying
I hate it

Really Sorry for u

But I have a Doubt :-

- - How much "Amitriptyline & benzos" did you took?

- - After how Many hours you have been rescued?

 

[lopsidedcrawdad1]

yea sucks big time, from somone who worked with late stages of ill people, cancer, dementia, even if you see/speak to them and already wanting to exit, the fact it gets denied more often than not. Only to let them suffer for years upping the dosages of painkillers so they become more and more unable to do anything and requiring more care which is already the bare minimum in allot of work spaces i worked. Or the traject they go into when they are mentally stable, only to take so many years for it to be approved till the point they are not deemed mentally stable/viable anymore for such choices to just let them slowly die away.... i believe switzerland has an option for suicide but it cost like 200k, somthing crazy like that i believe. I always felt like it is for the money, even the time we had like specific timing for basic care we gave to the people. Every person is diffrent you cant say you have 5 minutes for this 10 minutes for that. Or only wash them properly when you knew family was coming to visit just so it looks like they were in good hands and getting all the care they needed. Most cases all the people wanted was somone to talk to or getting attention and not half hour a person to than sit them down in a chair and go on smoke breaks and talk bad behind their back. (Talking colleges)

I think Switzerland is actually fairly affordable. Around 7-10k. Still should be more accessible but that amount of money isnt completely unattainable.

 

[yovoyporti]

I think Switzerland is actually fairly affordable. Around 7-10k. Still should be more accessible but that amount of money isnt completely unattainable.

Ow thats way less than i though. Tbh healthcare insurance should cover it, but they probably wont since they miss out on insurance, taxes etc when you step out. Also years of therapy brings in sweet money but never seeks a solution. One thing i learned is: a patient cured is a costumer lost