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wisdom

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Jul 16, 2026
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Hello, I wanted to share with you all my journey.
At first I wansnt sure but I thought if I don´t share it here, where will I?
Maybe some of you are experiencing something similar and I thought this might be helpful, as it would have been for me before trying it.
Last year I was depressed, feeling terrible. I decided that I had to CTB to stop all the suffering, so I tried.
Then I failed doing it, I felt terrible and wanted to try again as soon as possible.
I failed again, and started feeling terrible about it and wanted to try again with a better planning, but then I started to feel better just before I was going to do it for the 3rd time.
Now I am in recovery and I can´t say that I´m perfectly but I´m grateful to have another chance in this life. And I decided to never do it.
What I want to say is that if you are having suicidal thoughts think about it again, I know it can sound stupid but seriously I want you to reconsider it. . Also if you failed like me you can think about it as another chance like it was for me.

Thanks for reading, you also can tell me your story or tell me what you think about this or any question and I will be happy to answer.
 
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BradGuy123

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Thank you for sharing your story. I am glad you are doing so much better now. I wish you a long and happy life.
 
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wisdom

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Thank you for sharing your story. I am glad you are doing so much better now. I wish you a long and happy life.
Thank you, hope you have a long and happy life too. Are you doing good?
 
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BradGuy123

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Thank you, hope you have a long and happy life too. Are you doing good?
I'm doing fine. I joined this site because I was going through a difficult time. I wanted to research methods in case I ever had to CTB in the future. I decided to stick around.
 
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wisdom

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I'm doing fine. I joined this site because I was going through a difficult time. I wanted to research methods in case I ever had to CTB in the future. I decided to stick around.
Glad to hear that, wish you the best luck
 
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I hope you find something in life that brings you the peace and stability you need and deserve.
 
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wisdom

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I hope you find something in life that brings you the peace and stability you need and deserve.
Thank you, I´m already feeling much better I´m so glad to have failed. Wish you the best in your life
 

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