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Michelstaedter

Michelstaedter

Specialist
Feb 25, 2025
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That's all... I envy them.

Giacomo Leopardi mentioned it, and I've been reminded of that feeling lately. Even the Bible, Ecclesiastes 4:2, expresses this idea.

Watching CTB videos, thinking about methods, in the end, those who have already achieved it are the true winners. They no longer have to think about a method, they don't have to suffer again, nor do they have to do the same thing again. Reincarnation, heaven, or hell are just fairy tales... The end.
 
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LastDayOnEarth

LastDayOnEarth

Vsed apologist
May 20, 2025
387
Hopefully I can be like them soon
 
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cursedlife

Student
Jun 28, 2024
157
yeah I envy the dead too ,I hate this life , I honestly think about death all day everyday no matter where I'm ,and I started to envy even those who died a horrible death
 
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JealousOfTheElderly

In death, life echoes. In life, death calls.
Aug 28, 2020
318
I do too... and I am also jealous of the elderly. wish I could trade places with someone in their 80s.
I envy those in hospice and palliative care too.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,379
I understand as I also envy them, all I envy are those who no longer suffer in this dreadful, painful and torturous existence, no matter what all I could hope for is to be permanently unconscious free from all pain, torture and suffering, to suffer in this existence is just always the most terrible mistake to me, all I want is to be at true permanent peace where all is gone and forgotten.