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liljeep

liljeep

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Jul 1, 2023
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I have C-PTSD, DID, and BPD. all are diagnosed please no accusations

I have a lot of triggers that are super common, even simple things, and some extremely specific ones. Inevitably, something triggers me every day.

I'm not someone who mentions every time I am triggered, I try to just swallow it unless it's something reasonable enough to remember. Because of course the world and people, no matter how close they are to me, aren't going to bend this and that way just because things affect me specifically too much. I'm hypersensitive even when I'm not triggered, hypervigilant, and my opinions and feelings change so much I don't understand 'myself'. The 'me' I present to the world isn't how I think and I guess that could be said about everybody, but it's not normal. I don't know how to explain it, I'm just not me and I don't know if there is a me.

I am going to have these disorders for the rest of my life and it's too much to bare. There is no amount of time that makes the wounds less sensitive. There is no amount of 'recovery work' in therapy or through self-help that dulls the pain. All I had was drugs and I've been forced into sobriety, there is no way for me to get drugs where I am. Not through the mail, not through messaging people on social media and meeting up with them, nothing. There is nothing. I have nothing, I am nothing.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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It must be really tiring suffering like that, to me it's really understandable just wishing to be free from it all, but anyway best wishes.
 
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Sorry to hear that you're suffering from so much OP… you don't deserve that at all. The world is so disgusting to those who didn't do anything wrong.. I hope you find peace OP. I wish you well.
 
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Apr 2, 2022
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Sorry for all that you're suffering, I relate to almost everything you said. About the triggers, feelings, hypersensitivity, that sense of hopelessness... I hope that makes you feel some kind of comfort and supported. A big hug for you 💗💞
 
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Feb 16, 2023
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I'm so sorry you feel the same

this is what people don't get is even when you do everything perfectly in your life your brain is still broken
 
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I feel so sorry about your Story. I do hope you will find here on SaSu some suitable support and hope.
 
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