Discussion I don't want to know my diagnosis

[LaetumCat]

I don't want to know whatever diagnosis I have.
Whenever I see symptoms of a mental illness, and I relate to it, or even have the exact same symptoms, I tell myself that I'm too happy to have any sort of mental illness, that I don't have any trauma (which is often the root of mental issues), that I'm faking it, etc.... I don't know why I do this. I think if I would be told some sort of diagnosis by a mental health professional, I'd just deny it thinking they don't know me well enough, that I lied to them, that they probably diagnosed me wrong...
Also, another reason why I don't wanna be officially diagnosed is because whatever diagnosis I'd get, it would ALWAYS be the cause of my other, non mental health related issues. Well, at least that's what I assume they would say.
Sometimes I also think, "well, [certain symptom] used to be worse for me, and now it's better (manageable), so I shouldn't count it as a symptom!" and that's why I wouldn't even be able to self diagnose or anything like that.
I reckon I used to have social anxiety when I was a child, but there's not really any proof of that since I never went to any mental health professionals until I got hospitalised (like half a year ago).

Anyone else like this? :')

 

[LastNite]

Sort of the same. I don't care for a diagnosis. I already know what I have. I used to feel sad. Now I feel less sad. I used to be suicidal. Now I'm not.

I still have social anxiety.