I don’t want to get better , I want to die .

[hesitation]

I really wish this was one of those things where people ask you and if the answer is no , they point you in the right direction .

But no one wants to help someone end their lives peacefully (doesn't help that it's illegal in most places unless you're a doctor with a dying patient lol) .

I think of Sweden a lot . It won't take much for me to get the money together as a "deposit " and the documents they need . But finding someone will be tough . I just hope I can do it and no one stops me .

It would be hell on earth to get into a conservatorship or some other horrible scenario where someone is "taking care of me for my best interest" … and in reality they're just keeping me here , doped up on sedatives , being hostile to anyone who would want to help me with my desire to die and keeping me here for selfish reasons . The same as people who have a kid they don't really want or just to have someone who gives them attention 24/7.

I really would rather die than lose my autonomy over my already miserable life . And I've seen people be horrible caretakers to others (I've worked in caregiving for a while) … and even if you report it those people work the system , it's not even about you reporting them it's about the fact they're determined to "win"…. I never want to play that game with them .

I just want to die peacefully. I'm so tired of being alive .

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as I just wish to peacefully cease existing as well, all I want is to never suffer in this torturous, cruel and futile existence ever again, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[hesitation]

I understand as I just wish to peacefully cease existing as well, all I want is to never suffer in this torturous, cruel and futile existence ever again, I hope you find the relief you search for.

Thank you . I hope the Same for you .

I wish it wasn't so hard to find a peaceful way to go .

 

[Pale_Rider]

I feel the same way. There is no getting better. There is no fixing it. And if somebody wants to "help", now I can't trust them. One of my rules is I won't be dying at somebody else's hands.

 

[Hangman.]

People should have the liberty to take their own life. Forcing someone live in this torturous world is extremely cruel and should be denounced. I can understand your feelings and wish the best for you.

 

[hesitation]

I feel the same way. There is no getting better. There is no fixing it. And if somebody wants to "help", now I can't trust them. One of my rules is I won't be dying at somebody else's hands.

I just hope we have a painless , peaceful end, soon.

I also don't want to die at someone else's hands . Whether it's to deny them the satisfaction , or the grief , I simply wish to do it myself . The way I desire.

People should have the liberty to take their own life. Forcing someone live in this torturous world is extremely cruel and should be denounced. I can understand your feelings and wish the best for you.

I agree .

Thank you so much . I wish the same for you . A peaceful , painless death of your own method .

 

[passedawayinapril]

Even if I wanted to get help, it wouldn't even be effective. (I tried before and it proved to be useless)
The mental health system is a joke and all they care about is medicating vulnerable people and making money off of them.

 

[upsidedowngoldfish]

I wise it was not so hard, and am sorry

 

[theboy]

I feel you
It's amazing how many people see you destroyed but insist on saving you