I don't want to get better, fuck that

[danzk2005]

I don't want to get better, don't come to me with that thing about starting to run, starting to go to the gym, starting a new project, starting college, starting to read a book, bro I don't care about any of that, fuck my future, let destiny or God do what it wants with my life, I don't care. Fuck all that bullshit advice.

 

[rs929]

Have you tried exercising and a good diet?.












Just kidding.

As a fellow depressed latino (Argentina). I think it's not that we don't want to get better. It's just so fucking difficult and exhausting to try.

 

[divinemistress36]

Its to much effort

 

[bipolar22]

I loved kickboxing. Wanted to go pro at some point. But it's all too corrupt. Trainers just want your money dont even teach properly . They put extra hard glove padding now to make it more entertaining in competition causing fighters much more damage just for money for the big organisation. It's just all too corrupt to be worthwhile. There's nothing but greed in this world. Lost all.my passions and faith . And normal jobs just butt kissing to make owners richer while they pay as little as possible and maximum work hours. Depressing world. What look getting better even look like. Except being exploited? Idk

 

[Shadows From Hell]

I don't want to either. Getting better will not make life any better, there will always be something that drags you back to hell.

 

[galaxid]

1000% agreed. My life is objectively less shit than it was 2 years ago. By all metrics I am getting better, making improvements, etc. Yet I still want to ctb at my earliest convenience. At least for me, no amount of realistic improvement mitigates this crazy amount of pain.

 

[kimcoffee_]

Life is all just so pointless, god its so dumb

 

[deathisapanacea]

Can't agree more. I want shit to end. That's it. I will take instant death over a billion dollars.

 

[bobblong]

I agree brother , as long as you don't violate any laws than we're cool . Simple as that . Your life is your own , not for someone to judge.

 

[AnonymousL]

at some point you get soo comfortable with feeling like this that getting better is just scary as hell and not something you desire anymore.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

This. So much this. My life isn't that bad, I have no chronic pain and I'm upper middle-class, but I just can't go on emotionally. I give up. I did my best, I really did, I gave life a chance time and time and time again. Is it too much to ask being loved and loving someone? Living your childhood dream at a grassroots level? A decent job? Yeah, it was, it's just impossible for me to have all three and live a happy life. My ex just destroyed that part of me that was innocent and hopeful and I don't want to go through life like this broken version of myself nor I want to do all the effort to rebuild. I want to die. I want to leave this world with what little dignity I have left and for people to remember me as I was, not as I've become.

PS: DEPRESSED LATINO GANG RISE UP. Or don't, I don't want to rise up, just want to ctb.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

i don't want to get better in this life . the way i'll be better is to not exist. non-existence forever is the ultimate beauty

 

[whyDoesItHurtSoMuch]

I relate to this.

 

[NonEssential]

Same. On Tuesday if my psychiatrist asks if I want an another session, I'm most likely just going to say no.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I came to this forum for just this reason. It's so aggravating when looking stuff up online and getting flooded with "how to get better" crap. As if everyone just naturally always want to "get better". It's just stupid.

 

[tiredoflife2]

I don't even think it works like that tbh. I think suicidal ideation comes and goes, from my own experience.

 

[relapse]

It's almost as if we owe everyone recovery. What a joke