Discussion I don’t want to die

[mini_weeny]

Like many here, I'm going through hell with my health issues so obviously I just want to "rest". My emotional side says, I want to live so badly, I want to see so many things, do so many things but my body is broken and torturing me so, it is actually the rational side of me that says that I need to manage my existence and that things can't go on like this for years, that my situation is unsustainable and that I have to die.
What side is driving you to ctb? Your emotional or your rational side?

 

[Squiddy]

I'm not sure which side for me. I also wanna live so bad to do things, but the things that make me want to ctb are my incompetency, my bad short term memory, my articulation issues verbally and my mental health issues. If all these could go away, I'd be fine.

 

[Amumu]

No jaw problems, a gf and friends, no existential problems...
And if my sister wasn't crying everyday...
I'd be fine. But that's impossible, ya know.

 

[mini_weeny]

I'm not sure which side for me. I also wanna live so bad to do things, but the things that make me want to ctb are my incompetency, my bad short term memory, my articulation issues verbally and my mental health issues. If all these could go away, I'd be fine.

I think most of us are mentally or physically broken but I've seen here that financial issues can cause pple to want to ctb too, inescapable abuse too. For me I had a good somewhat happy life before my health issues so I would be happy if I could just go back to how I was before I didn't think of ctb then.

 

[the_final_countdown]

Like many here, I'm going through hell with my health issues so obviously I just want to "rest". My emotional side says, I want to live so badly, I want to see so many things, do so many things but my body is broken and torturing me so, it is actually the rational side of me that says that I need to manage my existence and that things can't go on like this for years, that my situation is unsustainable and that I have to die.
What side is driving you to ctb? Your emotional or your rational side?

What are your health problems?

 

[mini_weeny]

What are your health problems?

I have scleroderma an autoimmune disease that has started affecting motility in my GI tract, nerve issues probably MS and the one that is the reason to be here is tinnitus and hyperacusis, a condition that causes extreme pain in the ears with everyday sounds. U??