i dont want to die but what else am i supposed to do?

[bluville]

i wish i had the opprotunity to live a happy life so badly, i see how beautiful life can be and im miserable because I can't experience that part of life. i dont want to die but like what else i suppose to do? be miserable and wait for the .02% chance that things get better? dying cant even be peaceful, its more just a bitter acceptance that i never had a chance. it pisses me off how i was just put on this earth to watch everyone be happy and successful and then die without experiencing any of it. its so unfair

 

[Pluto]

I often feel the same way. I just accept it now; eventually it all comes to naught anyway. With hindsight, a lot could have been done differently when I was still young, though. I was hanging out with people who were themselves turning their backs on real change. I was lacking guidance and not even aware of how completely brainwashed I was by abusers in ways that made functioning impossible. Worst of all, I was stubborn. I hope you can learn something from my mistakes.

 

[jay308]

Dear Friend , I dont know your situation but I hope you find something which can bring meaning and a motive to move forward. Best wishes

 

[FuneralCry]

It's just the unfortunate reality of this existence that many people suffer way more than others all through no fault of their own. There could never be anything fair about any of this, life really is such a cruel and terrible concept where chance so unfairly determines everything. But anyway, I wish you the best of luck.

 

[BBBB]

I understand! LIFE is EXTREMELY unfair! For many of us it's a daily painful struggle; just existing each day.
BUT I'm glad that you don't really want to die. To me that means there's hope and some drive within you to find your "happiness", whatever that may look like.
After many, many years of trying so hard, I no longer have any hope or internal drive/motivation to find peace and happiness. I'm just beyond ready to go!!

 

[born2win]

They really tried through Socialism, look what happened to that. Deaths, most deaths in human eventful history is associated to socialism-communism during Stalin's, Mao"s etc...

Life is indeed unfair I can hardly understand why some people are not angry at poverty. Well you know why, they have families to 'live' for even then, if youre well read and know how things end. It's ugly all around.

To be fair, however, as time moves on, condition of life improves. So hopefully in the near future - future if our resources are still enough and the rich and poor divide vs the billions and billions of humans alive we finally or they finally feel life is fair to them from birth to finish.

 

[Henryk]

I understand exactly what you mean, I also don't want to die because I know that good things have happened in my life that if I had left I would never have experienced. but I know that living a life of suffering is torture that never seems to end and that doesn't seem fair to me. This fear of maybe doing the wrong thing is what keeps me here but I'm sure that at some point I'll go ahead with it and put an end to this suffering

 

[novem]

They really tried through Socialism, look what happened to that. Deaths, most deaths in human eventful history is associated to socialism-communism during Stalin's, Mao"s etc...

Life is indeed unfair I can hardly understand why some people are not angry at poverty. Well you know why, they have families to 'live' for even then, if youre well read and know how things end. It's ugly all around.

To be fair, however, as time moves on, condition of life improves. So hopefully in the near future - future if our resources are still enough and the rich and poor divide vs the billions and billions of humans alive we finally or they finally feel life is fair to them from birth to finish.

There is a big difference between socialism and communism. And FYI capitalism is socialism in one person.

 

[Archness]

My past isn't that bad, but I've realized I'm not gonna make it. As they say, "It's all downhill from here". The best I could hope for the way society is going is to find a way to make money to distract from this emptiness in my heart.

 

[bluville]

I often feel the same way. I just accept it now; eventually it all comes to naught anyway. With hindsight, a lot could have been done differently when I was still young, though. I was hanging out with people who were themselves turning their backs on real change. I was lacking guidance and not even aware of how completely brainwashed I was by abusers in ways that made functioning impossible. Worst of all, I was stubborn. I hope you can learn something from my mistakes.

I'm constantly thinking about how things could have been better. Not everything was under my control but there were still things I could have done to lessen the damage. But it's like how could I have known? I was a kid, it pisses me off thinking about it.

I hope there's still a chance to make better choices. I hope however things end for you your happy with it

 

[taq]

it pisses me off how i was just put on this earth to watch everyone be happy and successful and then die without experiencing any of it.

Being in a position that enables you to post here in the first place already means that you're statistically better off than ALOT of people.
Problem is our perception of what "better off" really means, as all objective measures pale in comparison to what we perceive our situation to be.
There is no concrete advice one could give to you, due to the lack of details on what is wrong specifically. I realize quite often one doesn't know "what's wrong" themselves.
But two things:

• Accepting the past might be difficult, but there is typically no way around it. I overthink past decisions myself and hate myself for the absurd levels of procrastination I succumb to every day - but there is no other way than to just accept it and trying to move on with all your strength.
• "Time heals all wounds" is a overused phrase, I know. But it is overused for a reason: It simply holds true. Our brain is wired in a way that will always strive to balance out constant excitement, as well as constant depression. So even if your circumstances around you don't change, your brain will. Eventually. Not a very comfortable concept but it does work.

Would you mind describing your personal situation a bit closer?

 

[bbye111]

I never want to be alive again, life's one big mess. even if you do get born into a well-off family, along your life, no matter how kind, loving, and righteous you are. either others fucks you up or you fuck it up yourself. since life's awfully unfair, you suffer consequences that aren't even your fault, are forced into unwanted situations, and bear pain that wasn't meant for you, leaving you wounded from a war you didn't even sign up for.

 

[Fl4u]

I'm constantly thinking about how things could have been better. Not everything was under my control but there were still things I could have done to lessen the damage. But it's like how could I have known? I was a kid, it pisses me off thinking about it.

I hope there's still a chance to make better choices. I hope however things end for you your happy with it

Oh, yes. What IF... things might have turned out completely different for me