Venting I don't want to be lonley anymore.

[UnnervedCompany]

A guy I had feelings for and he had feelings for me stopped talking. He was living too far away and he just ended a breakup and told me he doesn't want to date me. I kept telling him I am willing to wait until he recovers but he didn't give me any intention of dating me in the future. And I had to unfortunately block him. LOL And I thought I was doing mentally well in Uni but I just had the worst panic attack also with the addition of finding out that all my friends are leaving me due to co-op and I realized I WILL BE ALONE AGAIN AGAIN AND AGAIN LIKE I AM ALWAYS AM ALONE FUCKING ALONE. I don't want to be alone I hate this I hate this feeling I JUST WANT TO NOT BE ALONE. THAT IS MY ONLY ASK. I was ALONE IN HIGH SCHOOL I WAS ALONE IN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL. I CAN"T CONNECT WITH MY FAMILY CAUSE I AM FUCKING GAY WITH DIFFERENT LIKES AND INTREST THAN ALL OF THewniomoep wfji . I just don't want to be alone that is the last thing I want. Online friends leave me, irl friends leave me, people I want to date leave me. It hurts so much I want this pain to end. PLEASE I don't want to be lonely I can't handle this. AND THE FUNNIEST PART> AFter this rant I have to go fucking study for my midterm because life wants to continue challenging me and hurting me. I JUST WANT A BREAK. PLEASE ANYTHING THAN BEING LONELy.





Sorry if I went a bit insane during this I wrote this right after I stopped crying but the feelings are still fresh to me.

 

[TheLastGreySky]

Everything is going to be fine even though it doesn't feel like it is right now.

I hate being lonely myself, so I sleep around.
As a straight guy I get a lot of shit for it.

Things will get better if you believe they will.
But faith is the hardest part because it takes time.