ZoloftSüchtig
„We can olive together“
- Apr 9, 2023
- 114
I'm so scared they will hate me. I'm so scared they will hate me. Pls don't! I ruined my life, it's very very hard and time consuming and costs a lot to undo this mistake and my mom payed a lot of money so I can undo this mistake only for me to chicken out and now I probably will never get the money to undo this mistake ever again. So I need to die. I need to kill myself. I need to end it. Wich is so sad because I have the will to live. I want to live, if I could undo this mistake wich is possible but like I said probably not possible anymore for me. So I need to end it and kill myself but what about my family? What about them? Will they hate me for it and think I'm selfish? I love them so much and I'm so scared that my mom won't know how to deal with it and that then my sisters will blame me for it. But I love my mom so so much. I never ever ever ever want her to suffer. I want her to be the happiest person alive, but I seriously can't continue living anymore. So if my I can somehow show my sisters how much I hate doing this will they still think Im being selfish in ending my suffering? I'm miserable. Fuck I need help. Fuck can any of you guys pls hug me right now? Pls???!!! Please ):