I don't understand how the world goes on without a care

[Tintypographer]

I live every day with a hopeless feeling of nothing mattering at all. I done understand how so many people go through their days of existence finding the little things in life to care about or finding joy in the moment of relationships. All that comes to my brain is how we exist as a tiny blip in the timescale of the universe and nothing really matters. Even when I compare to a short time, say 100 or 200 years I don't matter at all. My life and achievements and goals and relationships didn't matter before I was born and they won't matter after I'm gone. Two generations ahead and no one will know of me. And the world is built to prevent things from mattering.

When I ask someone like my to prove that I'm of any value in 200 years they cant do it without invoking a change in perspective to the micro scale or a special pleading as though "your relationships matter to other people and what if they change the world through knowing you..." Which is all crap.

I hate therapy and I hate reframing viewpoints and I just want things to be better

 

[rationaltake]

The Existentialist view is that there is no point to anything and it's up to each person to find their own point.

But what if you can't come up with any point? Or don't want to?

 

[FuneralCry]

I also see everything as being very pointless. Life is just suffering for the sake of it. It is true that our lives are so insignificant and do not really matter, as once we are gone, things will be incapable of being important to us. I think that many people are so distracted by their lives, they do not really think about how meaningless it all is. I guess to me the only positive thing about being alive is that everything is temporary and this life will end someday no matter what.

 

[Out of Time]

I live every day with a hopeless feeling of nothing mattering at all. I done understand how so many people go through their days of existence finding the little things in life to care about or finding joy in the moment of relationships. All that comes to my brain is how we exist as a tiny blip in the timescale of the universe and nothing really matters. Even when I compare to a short time, say 100 or 200 years I don't matter at all. My life and achievements and goals and relationships didn't matter before I was born and they won't matter after I'm gone. Two generations ahead and no one will know of me. And the world is built to prevent things from mattering.

When I ask someone like my to prove that I'm of any value in 200 years they cant do it without invoking a change in perspective to the micro scale or a special pleading as though "your relationships matter to other people and what if they change the world through knowing you..." Which is all crap.

I hate therapy and I hate reframing viewpoints and I just want things to be better

I hear this. So many people live and die without anyone even knowing who they were. I've heard the question "if a tree falls in the forest and no one hears it, did it make a sound?", and I think that it doesn't really matter. That tree doesn't exist to anyone, so what does it matter if it stands, falls, or makes sound? Since shits been this bad for me, I've had times where I'm cowering about opening my front door to go outside. I could be in my place for over a week and not hear from friends for weeks at a time. While they're enjoying their lives and are worth the families they have around them, I'm spending days and days at a time trapped inside my home. I can call or text them sure, and schedule an appointment for a conversation, no doubt. But the fact remains that there are so many more like me who are afraid of the day and spend their lives terrified of all the things that could possibly go wrong in those next hours while the rest of the world can go on as if nothing is ever wrong. I don't think that my perception is accurate, it only seems so. But it really seems so. I don't know if I'm hurting because I'm alone or not, but my earliest memories were painful and I have a memory from infancy. Even then it hurt and that was before I knew I was alone or a waste or had experienced trauma and loss. I guess I'm trying to say that people say suicide is selfish cuz of the people left behind, but if there's no one close enough to be affected, then what does it matter?

 

[Julgran]

I live every day with a hopeless feeling of nothing mattering at all. I done understand how so many people go through their days of existence finding the little things in life to care about or finding joy in the moment of relationships. All that comes to my brain is how we exist as a tiny blip in the timescale of the universe and nothing really matters. Even when I compare to a short time, say 100 or 200 years I don't matter at all. My life and achievements and goals and relationships didn't matter before I was born and they won't matter after I'm gone. Two generations ahead and no one will know of me. And the world is built to prevent things from mattering.

When I ask someone like my to prove that I'm of any value in 200 years they cant do it without invoking a change in perspective to the micro scale or a special pleading as though "your relationships matter to other people and what if they change the world through knowing you..." Which is all crap.

I hate therapy and I hate reframing viewpoints and I just want things to be better

Life is like breathing - it's only tough if you try to do it deliberately. Some say "ignorance is bliss".

 

[Tintypographer]

I don't actually believe it's selfish because you're gone. I actually think the world hates suicide because the left behind feel it's selfish but they know that person "got away with leaving the pain behind". The remainders feel cheated but the depth of that hurt is that they know the person who committed suicide doesn't have to deal with crap anymore and they don't feel like they were selfish. Their pain is gone.

 

[Rational man]

I live every day with a hopeless feeling of nothing mattering at all. I done understand how so many people go through their days of existence finding the little things in life to care about or finding joy in the moment of relationships. All that comes to my brain is how we exist as a tiny blip in the timescale of the universe and nothing really matters. Even when I compare to a short time, say 100 or 200 years I don't matter at all. My life and achievements and goals and relationships didn't matter before I was born and they won't matter after I'm gone. Two generations ahead and no one will know of me. And the world is built to prevent things from mattering.

When I ask someone like my to prove that I'm of any value in 200 years they cant do it without invoking a change in perspective to the micro scale or a special pleading as though "your relationships matter to other people and what if they change the world through knowing you..." Which is all crap.

I hate therapy and I hate reframing viewpoints and I just want things to be better

Humans have been plagued with hindsight and foresight..We,spend our time worrying or regretting. In reality.we can only live in the moment and experience life and love now. We cannot experience death because our extinction is the end, subject to beliefs etc. Im dying and my legacy will live on in the animal charity i sponsor.

 

[Mocon33]

I live every day with a hopeless feeling of nothing mattering at all. I done understand how so many people go through their days of existence finding the little things in life to care about or finding joy in the moment of relationships. All that comes to my brain is how we exist as a tiny blip in the timescale of the universe and nothing really matters. Even when I compare to a short time, say 100 or 200 years I don't matter at all. My life and achievements and goals and relationships didn't matter before I was born and they won't matter after I'm gone. Two generations ahead and no one will know of me. And the world is built to prevent things from mattering.

When I ask someone like my to prove that I'm of any value in 200 years they cant do it without invoking a change in perspective to the micro scale or a special pleading as though "your relationships matter to other people and what if they change the world through knowing you..." Which is all crap.

I hate therapy and I hate reframing viewpoints and I just want things to be better

Perhaps a really successful person might still be known a thousand years from now. But that too is an insignificant slice of time in the grand scheme of things. In the end, all of us, equally, are just a puff in the wind. Death is the great equalizer, not a bad thing in my view.

 

[Seeking_Peace]

I guess the reason is being active. I remember in my earlier years I was constantly busy and didn't have time to reflect on 100 years from now.

Makes me think of those people trying to live past 100 by following strict eating and exercise regimen. Death is hard to accept for most.