Giving up on recovery and here's why

[TheLastGreySky]

So for the past year I've been fighting for my kids and losing against fostercare. Fostercare is holding a termination hearing for my parental rights. I've never denied being a terrible person as I was in a toxic relationship for 12 years, but that was drama between me and my then wife. Anyway I found out just the extent that my ex wife put bullshit into my children's heads and I'm done trying to overcome this rn.

I found out that my ex-wife had the complete lunacy to lie and tell him that I "rape and abuse women" and I am absolutely enraged. This is something evil to tell my son. I am concerned for my son's well-being because he's been told things a 11 year old couldn't understand, and instead of the Fostercare going after their mother who lost them because she got addicted to meth, they're using this as a Trump card to terminate my rights.

The reality is my son has been showing suicidal behavior while in foster care, and that is something that the state wants to say is because the therapist brought me up, which is bull. But... I am worried that he might of gotten his suicidal behaviors from me after I lost my brother in 2020 when I had a nervous breakdown. I am ashamed and I feel like this is all my fault. And I definitely don't know how to approach the false accusations if they get brought up in court on Tuesday. What am I supposed to say? I don't think they want to believe that my ex wife is sick in the head.
And frankly even if they believe that and I get visitation, HOW am I going to be able to repair a relationship with my children when they have this perspective of me?

I am not here to argue my innocence anymore. I have owned up to what I have done.
But my ex-wife has killed my relationship with my kids and she's killed me at this point.
At this point, I feel I am only hurting my kids by being alive. The only thing that matters now is them not thinking there's a boogie man out to get them. Everything else no longer matters.
But I only hope one day they realized that I truly did love them. I think I've got one more post to make and then I'll put in the request for the Sanctioned admins to delete my account with proof.

 

[black money boys]

dude, you can fuck her whole life up if you sue her for these accusations!!!!!!!! women who are caught lying and falsely accusing others for such things can get into so much legal trouble. and its not that difficult to figure out whether its a false accusation or not, detectives will be involved, you will both be questioned and any possible witnesses, and eventually her story wont add up.

and you just may get guardianship of your kids and finally get the chance to turn your life around.

do not ctb just yet, get your revenge first

 

[TheLastGreySky]

dude, you can fuck her whole life up if you sue her for these accusations!!!!!!!! women who are caught lying and falsely accusing others for such things can get into so much legal trouble. and its not that difficult to figure out whether its a false accusation or not, detectives will be involved, you will both be questioned and any possible witnesses, and eventually her story wont add up.

and you just may get guardianship of your kids and finally get the chance to turn your life around.

do not ctb just yet, get your revenge first

They brought this up literally days before my termination hearing. And honestly, idgaf what some clown says about me -- I'm upset because it destroyed my son's perspective of me and is DEEPLY hurting him.

 

[bankai]

Regardless of whatever else might have happened, you definitely sound like you love your kids. And that's enough. It's enough for a parent who loves their kids to get to have them in their lives. The kids deserve it and the parent deserves it as well.

I'm sure their opinion about you will heal through future interactions. a little bit of initial bribing with gifts wouldn't hurt

Listen, it doesn't matter what she says. Try your best to get to visitation rights. They will understand over time what really happened. I hope you realize that this makes sense. Children are desperate for both mom and dad. They won't believe anything that easily. They will believe it if it aligns with your treatment of them, but if you treat them properly...well none of what she said is going to do ****.