Help I dont think there is a painless option... Unless I am stupid and missed something...

[Zeir Anpin 729]

Yes I have read the other threads and yes I have tried more than 10 times in the past month to end it all already. Nembutal and Exit International both failed me miserably. The truth is, that drug is not even made anymore, and ever single vendor is a scam artist. Even the two halfway decent ones I met where tainting the drug or siphoning it down. I have chronic pain in my knees and can't walk. I slept in until 5:00 PM today because being asleep / dead is better than being alive. I still feel the pain even while lying down. It never goes away. I will never have functional capacity restored or be able to do the things that make me happy ever again. Somebody please give me a good method that a homeless person like me can do to die instantly and painlessly. I have no money and cannot do anything fancy. I have thrown myself off of multiple bridges and tried hanging myself but I am built like Rasputin and simply cannot die to this things nor cause my own death. Help me please, this is a desperate cry.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I disagree. When people think about pain in death they often think about their own perceptions they have had about other peoples death is maybe the correct way to articulate my thought on that. For instance if we look at implementation of the death penalty in the US we see that methods that clearly pain the inmate yet are easy for the witnesses to watch were considered humane. it isnt until we see a death where the victim is moaning that now we decide its "cruel, and unusual". A shotgun blast that instantly vaporizes a persons head is clearly "painless", but the shear violence would have courts declaring it "cruel, and unusual". Im sure there are other conbsiderations as far as law, and ethics that I am ignorant of, and have omitted. Im just trying to express my view on that. maybe to much weed to early. lol

 

[SoulWantsHome]

Yes I have read the other threads and yes I have tried more than 10 times in the past month to end it all already. Nembutal and Exit International both failed me miserably. The truth is, that drug is not even made anymore, and ever single vendor is a scam artist. Even the two halfway decent ones I met where tainting the drug or siphoning it down. I have chronic pain in my knees and can't walk. I slept in until 5:00 PM today because being asleep / dead is better than being alive. I still feel the pain even while lying down. It never goes away. I will never have functional capacity restored or be able to do the things that make me happy ever again. Somebody please give me a good method that a homeless person like me can do to die instantly and painlessly. I have no money and cannot do anything fancy. I have thrown myself off of multiple bridges and tried hanging myself but I am built like Rasputin and simply cannot die to this things nor cause my own death. Help me please, this is a desperate cry.

As you have already dared jumping off of bridges, and thereby know how to overcome your survival-instinct regarding jumping: Why not travel (by using public transport or something) to a very high cliff (which has ground below it, as opposed to water) in the countryside, and do it there instead?

From what I've read elsewhere on the internet, the fall must be from at least 60 meters height or more, in order for it to ensure death, pretty much regardless of how a person lands/hits the ground. If the fall is from a lower height than that, the chance of survival (albeit with damages to the body), becomes very high.

(And of course, a suicidal person should try to land/hit the ground on his/her head, if possible - in order to maximize the chance of death, when using jumping as a suicide-method.)

 

[r.m.216]

Opiates

 

[Zeir Anpin 729]

Why not travel (by using public transport or something) to a very high cliff (which has ground below it, as opposed to water) in the countryside, and do it there instead?

Out of money but that is still a good idea. For years, I have imagined using the Grand Canyon as a jumping grounds... everyone else would think I am merely a tourist who tried to take a selfie out on the edge or something... I am in Texas currently and the land is flat except for the skyscrapers which I could not get access to due to security. I think it was an 100 meter fall from that one bridge i jumped off of and all the sharp limestone rocks below only gave me little cuts because i hit so many branches that i didnt even really fall properly...

 

[SoulWantsHome]

Out of money (...)

I am in Texas currently and the land is flat except for the skyscrapers (...)

Ah, I see... I thought it must be due to things like that.

I think it was an 100 meter fall from that one bridge i jumped off of and all the sharp limestone rocks below only gave me little cuts because i hit so many branches that i didnt even really fall properly...

Yeah - a 100 meter, restricted fall (a 100 meter fall, where you hit a lot of obstacles on the way down), isn't the same as a 100 meter, unrestricted fall (a 100 meter fall, where you don't hit any obstacles on the way down).

And the 60+ meter height-requirement that I mentioned in my previous reply, is obviously only valid if there's no obstacles in the way - so that the person's speed doesn't become reduced on the way down.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you've suffered so much and I see so much cruelty in how painless, guaranteed ways to cease existing are made inaccessible with the suffering of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I also just wish to be permanently free from this dreadful, painful and torturous existence, all I want is to never suffer again, I hope you find the freedom you are looking for, I wish you the best.