jodes2
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- Aug 28, 2022
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You taking SN right now??without gain as they say. I'm gonna find out right now...
You taking SN right now??without gain as they say. I'm gonna find out right now...
No I'm gonna try to hang myself. I really hope it works. See you on the other side my friend!You taking SN right now??
Wishing you peace, friendIm gonna try to hang myself. I really hope it works. See you on the other side my friend!
Yeah all I want is peace but it's so difficult to get there. I really hurt my throat but my eyes can't get any worse. Wish the noose would cause me to pass out quickly. Gonna try a different position but I imagine I'm too much of a coward to get it done. It's amazing how I can hate living so much but my SI pulls me out when what I'm doing would work if I just allowed it. I'm gonna keep trying maybe I'll hopefully pass out and finally be done. I feel panicky when the numbness starts to come over me but really I should be panicky that I might stay alive. I wish I had a gun...Wishing you peace, friend
Welp, I've just been banned from Reddit for promoting hate. I posted in a vent sub that I hated the British subs and wished people there harm, I guess that was a step too far but I was hurt
Yeah, gun would be nice. I'd just feel bad leaving that mess for my dad, I suppose I'd go to a hotel room if I chose that methodYeah all I want is peace but it's so difficult to get there. I really hurt my throat but my eyes can't get any worse. Wish the noose would cause me to pass out quickly. Gonna try a different position but I imagine I'm too much of a coward to get it done. It's amazing how I can hate living so much but my SI pulls me out when what I'm doing would work if I just allowed it. I'm gonna keep trying maybe I'll hopefully pass out and finally be done. I feel panicky when the numbness starts to come over me but really I should be panicky that I might stay alive. I wish I had a gun...
Well the method I'm trying to do doesn't exactly leave a nice body either but I guess at least it isn't in pieces. If I had a gun I would go deep into the woods by my house and do it out there. I was considering trying to hang myself out there but I was afraid of not being able to find an anchor point and I'm too cowardly to go through a little pain to get it done. I cannot even begin to describe how much I hate my life and I should be capable of getting this done so I don't have to suffer any longer. Fuck my neck hurts and I don't want to be experiencing any of this any longer.Yeah, gun would be nice. I'd just feel bad leaving that mess for my dad, I suppose I'd go to a hotel room if I chose that method
Sorry about your neck, I can imagine how bad it must be. Last time I was in hospital there was a girl in a wheelchair from her hanging attempt and was having migraines from itWell the method I'm trying to do doesn't exactly leave a nice body either but I guess at least it isn't in pieces. If I had a gun I would go deep into the woods by my house and do it out there. I was considering trying to hang myself out there but I was afraid of not being able to find an anchor point and I'm too cowardly to go through a little pain to get it done. I cannot even begin to describe how much I hate my life and I should be capable of getting this done so I don't have to suffer any longer. Fuck my neck hurts and I don't want to be experiencing any of this any longer.
I'm sorry that I just can't get the job done. Maybe I'm not really suicidal and just using it as an excuse or something? I'm almost positive if I could just get through the unpleasantness of the first few minutes that I would die. It's not easy to strangle oneself. The pressure in our arteries and stuff is very high. Yeah I wish I had a gun and could just be done with this without struggle. Unfortunately I'm on a list and cannot get one through legal means.Sorry about your neck, I can imagine how bad it must be. Last time I was in hospital there was a girl in a wheelchair from her hanging attempt and was having migraines from it
I'm pretty sure you're suicidal! It's just that your SI is strongI'm sorry that I just can't get the job done. Maybe I'm not really suicidal and just using it as an excuse or something? I'm almost positive if I could just get through the unpleasantness of the first few minutes that I would die. It's not easy to strangle oneself. The pressure in our arteries and stuff is very high. Yeah I wish I had a gun and could just be done with this without struggle. Unfortunately I'm on a list and cannot get one through legal means.
I'm pretty sure if I really wanted to be dead that I would achieve it. It's not even SI it's just like Lary time I would fade out and then realize what situation I was in then stupidly cancel the attempts instead of just relaxing and going with it. I really don't want to live even another minute and the only social contact I have is on here sadly enough. Thank you very much for talking with me!I'm pretty sure you're suicidal! It's just that your SI is strong
Aww no problem, thank you for talking to me! I don't have any other social contact ATM either now that my (ex?) Gf is no longer talking to me, other than my dad who I'm grateful forI'm pretty sure if I really wanted to be dead that I would achieve it. It's not even SI it's just like Lary time I would fade out and then realize what situation I was in then stupidly cancel the attempts instead of just relaxing and going with it. I really don't want to live even another minute and the only social contact I have is on here sadly enough. Thank you very much for talking with me!
Tried it many times and failed :( I don't know what kept going wrong but I've exhausted all avenues I could think of trying to get it to work, but thanks it's a good suggestionHave you thought about inert gas?
oh yeaa you mentioned it once. I honestly wanna hear about your experiences because logically it makes no sense for it to not work and I also will be doing it in two months maybe.Tried it many times and failed :( I don't know what kept going wrong but I've exhausted all avenues I could think of trying to get it to work, but thanks it's a good suggestion
The first time, nothing happened and I used up all the gas. The second and third time I kept feeling like I was suffocating and had to rip the bag offoh yeaa you mentioned it once. I honestly wanna hear about your experiences because logically it makes no sense for it to not work and I also will be doing it in two months maybe.
I totally wanted to do that method but it's like at least 200 bucks to rent the tank and I don't have a way to bring in a gigantic tank into my house without my family asking questions. It would be my preferred method besides opiate overdose if I thought I could pull it off.Have you thought about inert gas?
Yeah opiate od would be my first choice too, love that stuff. Peaceful afly wanted to do that method but it's like at least 200 bucks to rent the tank and I don't have a way to bring in a gigantic tank into my house without my family asking questions. It would be my preferred method besides opiate overdose if I thought I could pull it off.
You can also have pain with no gainUgh I hate that expression lol. Personally I don't believe it, you *can* gain without pain often! But in this case, yeah...
Lordy, isn't that the truthYou can also have pain with no gain
It sucks. I hope I can get hold of N some time because I really would rather not suffer with SN. The taste, the headache, the difficulty breathing, it's a horrible combination (although I know there are much worse deaths). Why are we forced to put up with this shit? It's not fair. I don't want to keep suffering until I finally die naturally. All the illnesses and struggles I have yet to go through daunts me. How do normies just keep going in the face of decades of suffering to go? Shit, wtf is their secret?! So, it's a shame that right now SN seems like my best option. FFS. Its scary. It's going to be terrifying. At least I don't plan to CTB for a long time, so I still have a chance of getting N. I can't hurt my gf. Not yet. Not for a long while. Fuck! Gotta put up with all the daily shit that life brings.
Thank you, friendHi sweet @jodes2
I'm really sorry, you seems to feel hopeless, tired, anxious.. ❤
I totaly understand, I also consider SN like a painful and terrifying way to go.. and honestly I'm really surprised to see how many people here end their life with SN.
N is clearly the best way to go, I agree
If you feel stuck, why not cheking if darknet could offer you some ideas for a peaceful method, I had Morphine and Benzo from here, because like you I guess, I can't leave with others methods, they are really stressful (of course you already know but I'm not incitating)
I understand your feeling, you're not alone in this jail, do not forget ❤
You're courageous, stay strong like you already are ❤
Love ❤
If you live in the US you can have it shipped to you and buy it for about $260. You don't need a HUGE tank. The rest of the supplies are fairly cheap.I totally wanted to do that method but it's like at least 200 bucks to rent the tank and I don't have a way to bring in a gigantic tank into my house without my family asking questions. It would be my preferred method besides opiate overdose if I thought I could pull it off.
Did you use an exit bag or some mask/hood? The first time meaning nothing happen as in you didn't go unconscious? Was the gas pure? Did you make a decent exit bag? Regulator? Air flow?The first time, nothing happened and I used up all the gas. The second and third time I kept feeling like I was suffocating and had to rip the bag off
I feel helium would be better then sn I didn't know sn had that many bad effects to it well besides the one I want to achieve lol I would do heroin overdose but as a heroin addict It's fairly hard for me and very costly
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It's harder than it sounds. Especially with a shotgun.Yeah, gun would be nice. I'd just feel bad leaving that mess for my dad, I suppose I'd go to a hotel room if I chose that method
Yeah it sucks!Yeah I'm thinking about this too alot. It has gotten to the point that if I do I automatically hold my breath to see how it's like. It scares me even more. I really should stop doing that but it has somehow become an automatic reflex by my body and brain to prevent me actually taking the SN. As weird as it's sounds.
I also had some H overdoses. Not injecting though. Just snorting. But way too much. And not with the intention of actually kms. I get what people say by that pleasurable sensation of an H OD. But it's still dying and it just felt horrible not being able to breath. No matter what dying will never be very pleasurable. It's dying after all...But H also has more risks as it's not reversable...I still wonder then why SN is tbh
Sometimes I consider jumping even better than SN cuz your'e dead in a split of a second if you don't fail. Or a quick well aimed shot to the brainstam would take milliseconds one wouldn't even notice. But your'e really fucked if you fail in both cases. So N is probably the best and safest option here.
But yeah man dying is just dying and will always be freightening. But living for most can also be very painfull. One has to choose. Very hard to make the final decision though. But it's inevitable after all.
Take care friend