Venting I don’t know what’s wrong with me

[howswho]

Last year was one of my best years in a while. I had loads of friends, was doing well in school, etc. But something was still lingering in the back of my mind, something was there that needed to be scratched. This year I had to change schools, and it has been by far the worst year of my life. I have little friends, no one really likes me, the teachers suck, the kids suck, I don't like to generalize, but pretty much everything about the school sucks. I'm watching my best friends having the best years of their lives, doing well in school, getting girlfriends, and being generally well liked. While I'm crying myself to sleep every night. Part of me would like to believe that if I just got a girlfriend, if I just was well liked, then maybe I would be happy. But I know that's a lie. I just don't know what the cause of my suffering is. I just don't know what's wrong with me.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it really is awful how existing here can very easily get worse, life really is so unnecessarily cruel but anyway I wish you the best.