Venting I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO I JUST WANNA DIE!!! BUT I’VE GOT NOTHING TO USE TO DO IT!!! 😭😭😭😭😭

[Nagoop]

I'M IN SO MUCH MENTAL PAIN!!!! I JUST WANT IT TO STOP AND I DON'T WANT TO GO ON MEDS BECAUSE I'M SCARED OF THEM MESSING WITH MY CREATIVITY AND INTELLIGENCE!!! I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO USE TO KILL MYSELF WITH!!! THE ONLY THING I CAN THINK OF IS USING THE LIGATURE STRANGULATION METHOD BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO TIE THE KNOTS AND THERE AREN'T ANY HELPFUL VIDEOS ON HOW TO DO IT!!! AND I'M SO TIRED AND UNABLE TO COGNITIVELY THINK ANYMORE!!!!! I JUST WANT MY NIGHTMARE TO BE OVER!!!! I JUST WANT TO WAKE UP NOW!!!!

 

[sancta-simplicitas]

I'm sorry you're in so much pain.

 

[MyShadow]

Your pain is real. The pain and loneliness are real. I feel the same way. Maybe it will pass. Maybe it won't. But don't do anything until you can get a handle on your feelings and your situation. Trying to take your own life while you're feeling like this will most likely fail and you will end up in the worse situation you're in now.

I hope things settle so you can catch your breath. I say this as I suffer along with you. I am in a mental health crisis with no other option but to ride it out, so I know it's not easy. It's actually the most difficult thing to feel and deal with. I just don't want you to suffer beyond what you are feeling now.

 

[Nagoop]

Itx

Your pain is real. The pain and loneliness are real. I feel the same way. Maybe it will pass. Maybe it won't. But don't do anything until you can get a handle on your feelings and your situation. Trying to take your own life while you're feeling like this will most likely fail and you will end up in the worse situation you're in now.

I hope things settle so you can catch your breath. I say this as I suffer along with you. I am in a mental health crisis with no other option but to ride it out, so I know it's not easy. It's actually the most difficult thing to feel and deal with. I just don't want you to suffer beyond what you are feeling now.

its so fucking cruel as several months ago I was FINALLY feeling happy again. Because before then I had taken a steroid called Methylprednisolone that caused me to have a HUGE downfall in my mental health and stress response but after 4-5 months I was FINALLY feeling good again. Until I took a little too much ZZZquil and NyQuil to help me sleep off a sinus issue. Which btw NEVER went away as I ended up having SEVERE insomnia after that and then just went I thought things couldn't get ANY WORSE suddenly my emotions suffered EVEN WORSE THAN BEFORE my body tensed up and I couldn't relax and now I can't even sleep anymore whereas before I could. I just want my NIGHTMARE TO END it's honestly so CRUEL how little happiness I was even given in the first fucking place! I was only given 2-3 months out of 4 months of hell only to be put into an EVEN WORSE HELL than before!!!

 

[EmptyBottle]

I'M IN SO MUCH MENTAL PAIN!!!! I JUST WANT IT TO STOP AND I DON'T WANT TO GO ON MEDS BECAUSE I'M SCARED OF THEM MESSING WITH MY CREATIVITY AND INTELLIGENCE!!! I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO USE TO KILL MYSELF WITH!!! THE ONLY THING I CAN THINK OF IS USING THE LIGATURE STRANGULATION METHOD BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO TIE THE KNOTS AND THERE AREN'T ANY HELPFUL VIDEOS ON HOW TO DO IT!!! AND I'M SO TIRED AND UNABLE TO COGNITIVELY THINK ANYMORE!!!!! I JUST WANT MY NIGHTMARE TO BE OVER!!!! I JUST WANT TO WAKE UP NOW!!!!

Are you on such medication now? consider letting a doctor know, searching anecdotes of the medication online, etc.

 

[rs929]

Honestly I think that if you are in this level of desperation, I would give meds a shot. They might dull your creativity, they might not. But you can't be creative if you're dead.