I don’t know what to do. I can’t deal with this!

[BlessedOffal]

Damn. This is the type of serious shit I am scared of running into. I'm dangerously drawn to putting myself in very sketchy scenarios despite knowing full well the consequences. I've only not had stories like these, or worse, due to luck, and due to being an absolute recluse for a couple of years now. But in the past, oh man. Could have easily been me. I hope you don't beat yourself up too much. There are way too many losers out there preying on those of us who are vulnerable and trusting. You are in no way dumb or at fault. Rather, you are brave for sharing your story and reminding us all to be vigilant. Thank you. I appreciate you.

 

[RedRoses]

So proud of you Phoenix!!

 

[Phoenix1990]

UPDATE- I just thought I'd provide an update since original post.
I went back to police station last Friday (4/10/19) to report the scumbag that goes by the name 'Tony'. I met him last Thursday because he told me that he would knock on my mothers door and show her the sex video and made indirect threats also.
I know it was stupid, well idiotic, to meet with him but I felt at that time, that I had no other choice.
I met him in a public place, but later went back with him to a hotel (dumb I know) Once at the hotel he changed from Mr. Calm and understanding to Mr. Psycho.
Again he was pissed off that I had not followed his rules and told me he was only this way with me. He said other stuff but it will take too long to explain. I again foolishly had sex with him again because of the threats he made against me but more importantly my mother. He said this would be end of it and no harm would come to me or my mother.
Before sex he told me to take a drop of liquid on my tongue as it would relax me and wouldn't stay in my system too long. I thought it was N but this bottle was different from the N I had, which I later gave him back.
The two bottles of N I had originally were in a small glass, clear bottles with red lids, this bottle was made of brown glass with a blue lid.
I took a drop of the liquid on my tongue and it wasn't long before I felt it's affects. I felt euphoric. All my limbs felt like jelly. Sex took place. It was the grosses experience ever. I'd passed out at some point. When I came too it was over.
We didn't go to sleep that night, although I was hoping he would so I could stab him in his sleep which was a stupid idea, given that I didn't have a knife.
Prior to having sex, he kept going out into the hallway outside the hotel room. During one of his heated conversations, I heard him say on the phone, 'she is here now and waiting for when you get here'. At first I didn't know what to take from that, 'what did he mean?'. He came back into the room after one of these phone conversations, saying, 'they should have been here already but now I will have to wait until the morning'.
Morning came and I knew I had to get out of there because he was becoming more agitated.
Someone from the mental health team phoned, while I was still in the hotel room. They knew about 'Tony' and the situation and guessed when I couldn't speak that I was with him.
I managed to get out of there by saying I needed to collect some clothes from home but would return later as he wanted me to go back down South with him.
Once I left hotel I went immediately to mental health team, who told me that I needed to go back to the police because I was at risk, which I did, with one of the workers.
We were at the police station from around 5:30pm-11:30pm. The police contacted the hotel, as they wanted to check he was still there so that they could arrest him but he was not booked in under the name he had given me.
I am due to go back to the station on Tuesday to give a video interview.
I know it is really foolish of me to post on here, given that he is probably viewing this now but I needed to share and vent.
I'm going to start 2-day prep for SN tomorrow .

 

[DeathImminent]

UPDATE- I just thought I'd provide an update since original post.
I went back to police station last Friday (4/10/19) to report the scumbag that goes by the name 'Tony'. I met him last Thursday because he told me that he would knock on my mothers door and show her the sex video and made indirect threats also.
I know it was stupid, well idiotic, to meet with him but I felt at that time, that I had no other choice.
I met him in a public place, but later went back with him to a hotel (dumb I know) Once at the hotel he changed from Mr. Calm and understanding to Mr. Psycho.
Again he was pissed off that I had not followed his rules and told me he was only this way with me. He said other stuff but it will take too long to explain. I again foolishly had sex with him again because of the threats he made against me but more importantly my mother. He said this would be end of it and no harm would come to me or my mother.
Before sex he told me to take a drop of liquid on my tongue as it would relax me and wouldn't stay in my system too long. I thought it was N but this bottle was different from the N I had, which I later gave him back.
The two bottles of N I had originally were in a small glass, clear bottles with red lids, this bottle was made of brown glass with a blue lid.
I took a drop of the liquid on my tongue and it wasn't long before I felt it's affects. I felt euphoric. All my limbs felt like jelly. Sex took place. It was the grosses experience ever. I'd passed out at some point. When I came too it was over.
We didn't go to sleep that night, although I was hoping he would so I could stab him in his sleep which was a stupid idea, given that I didn't have a knife.
Prior to having sex, he kept going out into the hallway outside the hotel room. During one of his heated conversations, I heard him say on the phone, 'she is here now and waiting for when you get here'. At first I didn't know what to take from that, 'what did he mean?'. He came back into the room after one of these phone conversations, saying, 'they should have been here already but now I will have to wait until the morning'.
Morning came and I knew I had to get out of there because he was becoming more agitated.
Someone from the mental health team phoned, while I was still in the hotel room. They knew about 'Tony' and the situation and guessed when I couldn't speak that I was with him.
I managed to get out of there by saying I needed to collect some clothes from home but would return later as he wanted me to go back down South with him.
Once I left hotel I went immediately to mental health team, who told me that I needed to go back to the police because I was at risk, which I did, with one of the workers.
We were at the police station from around 5:30pm-11:30pm. The police contacted the hotel, as they wanted to check he was still there so that they could arrest him but he was not booked in under the name he had given me.
I am due to go back to the station on Tuesday to give a video interview.
I know it is really foolish of me to post on here, given that he is probably viewing this now but I needed to share and vent.
I'm going to start 2-day prep for SN tomorrow .

I am sorry for what that psycho is doing to you, but how could you go with him to a hotel and have sex with him after what he did. I recommend you not meeting with him anymore and cooperate with police, that guy is sick and need to be arrested, he could be doing this to other women as well.

 

[Phoenix1990]

I am sorry for what that psycho is doing to you, but how could you go with him to a hotel and have sex with him after what he did. I recommend you not meeting with him anymore and cooperate with police, that guy is sick and need to be arrested, he could be doing this to other women as well.

You are 100% right! I shouldn't have gone with him to a hotel and had sex with him again. I went with him and did what I did because when I had spoken to him that day he had made threats against my mother and knew where she lived. I felt in that moment that I was out of options. But again you are completely right and I regret my actions deeply.

 

[woxihuanni]

UPDATE- I just thought I'd provide an update since original post.
I went back to police station last Friday (4/10/19) to report the scumbag that goes by the name 'Tony'. I met him last Thursday because he told me that he would knock on my mothers door and show her the sex video and made indirect threats also.
I know it was stupid, well idiotic, to meet with him but I felt at that time, that I had no other choice.
I met him in a public place, but later went back with him to a hotel (dumb I know) Once at the hotel he changed from Mr. Calm and understanding to Mr. Psycho.
Again he was pissed off that I had not followed his rules and told me he was only this way with me. He said other stuff but it will take too long to explain. I again foolishly had sex with him again because of the threats he made against me but more importantly my mother. He said this would be end of it and no harm would come to me or my mother.
Before sex he told me to take a drop of liquid on my tongue as it would relax me and wouldn't stay in my system too long. I thought it was N but this bottle was different from the N I had, which I later gave him back.
The two bottles of N I had originally were in a small glass, clear bottles with red lids, this bottle was made of brown glass with a blue lid.
I took a drop of the liquid on my tongue and it wasn't long before I felt it's affects. I felt euphoric. All my limbs felt like jelly. Sex took place. It was the grosses experience ever. I'd passed out at some point. When I came too it was over.
We didn't go to sleep that night, although I was hoping he would so I could stab him in his sleep which was a stupid idea, given that I didn't have a knife.
Prior to having sex, he kept going out into the hallway outside the hotel room. During one of his heated conversations, I heard him say on the phone, 'she is here now and waiting for when you get here'. At first I didn't know what to take from that, 'what did he mean?'. He came back into the room after one of these phone conversations, saying, 'they should have been here already but now I will have to wait until the morning'.
Morning came and I knew I had to get out of there because he was becoming more agitated.
Someone from the mental health team phoned, while I was still in the hotel room. They knew about 'Tony' and the situation and guessed when I couldn't speak that I was with him.
I managed to get out of there by saying I needed to collect some clothes from home but would return later as he wanted me to go back down South with him.
Once I left hotel I went immediately to mental health team, who told me that I needed to go back to the police because I was at risk, which I did, with one of the workers.
We were at the police station from around 5:30pm-11:30pm. The police contacted the hotel, as they wanted to check he was still there so that they could arrest him but he was not booked in under the name he had given me.
I am due to go back to the station on Tuesday to give a video interview.
I know it is really foolish of me to post on here, given that he is probably viewing this now but I needed to share and vent.
I'm going to start 2-day prep for SN tomorrow .

Firstly, it has nothing to do with intelligence. You are acting like this because you are vulnerable. Just that if you stay vulnerable, neither your life nor your death will be in your control. I never tell anyone not to ctb once they've made up their mind, but in this case I want you to first be free of his influence before you decide what to do with your life, including ending it. Please understand this, it is the root of all evil to control someone, and he is controlling you. Not because he is smarter or stronger, but because you have fear.

Secondly, the fear by which he controls you. I know it is difficult to see it that way when you are in this situation, but nobody in this entire world would think any worse of you EVEN IF he could carry out his threat. You are grown woman, everybody knows you might have sex. If somebody is low, sick, disgusting enough to shoot you and show the video, the only thing that will happen is anybody worth their salt would refuse to look, be disgusted with him, and he will be arrested. That's all. You did not even have consensual sex with him, you were coerced. Again, which means getting arrested for him, and says nothing about your character.

It looks like he is planning on kidnapping you with other people, a criminal organisation. That can mean being a sex slave and tortured all your life. That means it is happening to other women as well. You are in very serious danger. Please, just please get him arrested. Stress the point he has accomplishes, ask for the heaviest protection the system can offer you. Again, once this creep and possibly his accomplishes are arrested, you can decide what to do with your life. But I don't want to see you die in fear and under control.

But please understand there is no 'good side' to him, or ANY SHAME on you. There just isn't. Keep sharing here. How does he read what you write here? Is he a member, or does he just know you're on here?

Be very careful and brave.

 

[Phoenix1990]

Firstly, it has nothing to do with intelligence. You are acting like this because you are vulnerable. Just that if you stay vulnerable, neither your life nor your death will be in your control. I never tell anyone not to ctb once they've made up their mind, but in this case I want you to first be free of his influence before you decide what to do with your life, including ending it. Please understand this, it is the root of all evil to control someone, and he is controlling you. Not because he is smarter or stronger, but because you have fear.

Secondly, the fear by which he controls you. I know it is difficult to see it that way when you are in this situation, but nobody in this entire world would think any worse of you EVEN IF he could carry out his threat. You are grown woman, everybody knows you might have sex. If somebody is low, sick, disgusting enough to shoot you and show the video, the only thing that will happen is anybody worth their salt would refuse to look, be disgusted with him, and he will be arrested. That's all. You did not even have consensual sex with him, you were coerced. Again, which means getting arrested for him, and says nothing about your character.

It looks like he is planning on kidnapping you with other people, a criminal organisation. That can mean being a sex slave and tortured all your life. That means it is happening to other women as well. You are in very serious danger. Please, just please get him arrested. Stress the point he has accomplishes, ask for the heaviest protection the system can offer you. Again, once this creep and possibly his accomplishes are arrested, you can decide what to do with your life. But I don't want to see you die in fear and under control.

But please understand there is no 'good side' to him, or ANY SHAME on you. There just isn't. Keep sharing here. How does he read what you write here? Is he a member, or does he just know you're on here?

Be very careful and brave.

'It looks like he is planning on kidnapping you with other people, a criminal organisation'.- I agree. My mental health team think the same thing. I have an urgent response mark on my house, so if he turns up and I phone the police, the police will treat it as a priority and come quicker.

 

[woxihuanni]

'It looks like he is planning on kidnapping you with other people, a criminal organisation'.- I agree. My mental health team think the same thing. I have an urgent response mark on my house, so if he turns up and I phone the police, the police will treat it as a priority and come quicker.

I'm really glad to hear they recognise the need to protect you, because I worry about you. Be brave, be calm. You are not stupid, nobody will lose respect for you for what happened. It is him who is a worm who does not deserve any respect or toleration. He is a waste of organic matter.

 

[Ruffian]

'It looks like he is planning on kidnapping you with other people, a criminal organisation'.- I agree. My mental health team think the same thing. I have an urgent response mark on my house, so if he turns up and I phone the police, the police will treat it as a priority and come quicker.

Are you still with us?

 

[Phoenix1990]

Are you still with us?

Until weekend, unfortunately