Venting I dont know if im going to be abre to wait

[birthdaylastwish]

I dont know if i can keep myself from cbt before my birthday.

They are going to make me work this saturday.

I promised myself that i would try my best. But bad News keep piling up.
I wish I had a single good thing happening right now. But everything seems so hopeless. Its almost as if god wants me to end it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, it really sounds like you've suffered a lot, I understand finding existing unbearable. But anyway I wish you the best.