Venting I don't know how to cope with the grief my death will cause.

[generalhuxxsmother]

I want to die so bad. I want everything to end. However I have a feeling my family won't cope with the grief well at all. I can only imagine spirals and life long darkness, anger, and some sort of pain. I don't want to think about it because I know it won't really be my problem when I'm gone and surely to God they'll manage. It still hurts. I don't know how to cope with causing a life altering event. I don't want them to feel sad. I try to think of it like this, would I rather them deal with my death or a see me waste my lifetime being a depressed nothing? A grown adult who does nothing, have no one, do nothing?

 

[pleaseletmeleave]

I don't know how to either. You're not alone with those feelings. I'm constantly wishing I get lucky and die from natural causes because maybe my death will be easier to accept then, but I doubt life will be that kind to me.

 

[starboy2k]

bright side
if you choose to CTB you won't really have to cope with a damn thing anymore……..
sounds like a huge weight lifted off the shoulders to me