I don't have anyone to talk to

[Hope:-)]

I have my family but they're very invalidating. They think I should just get over my facial injuries. I have suffered from medication induced mania and psychosis but they don't really believe me even though some of them have experienced the same thing. They put it down to the medication for them but for me they say that's just how I am which isn't true. This place doesn't really make me feel more positive as most people here have some level of commitment to taking their own life as have I so it's far from uplifting. I feel on my own and don't really see an option other than taking my own life though I'd love there to be one. Do you guys have anyone to talk to?

 

[jodes2]

I'm sorry about your family and that you don't find this place uplifting I don't know what I'd do without SS. Be very miserable probably

 

[Spyro24]

I met someone on SS I really enjoy talking to but I can have really negative moments and I can't help but feel like a burden. I met some other people as well but they have either left SS since or ctb. I like talking to people on here but it doesn't always turn out great.

 

[Shivali]

I talk to my dog. That's ok for me because she listens and never contradicts. She is a really good listener.

 

[Hope:-)]

I have no problem with the site- I go on it a lot, but the sad unavoidable truth is that we're all miserable. I meant irl really anyway. I want to be given sincere hope, but all I get told is that I don't have facial injuries when I do, that the medication never affected me when it did etc. Interestingly enough, I have come across at least 5 people on here who had similar reactions to medication...all suicidal

 

[rodie9k]

the sad unavoidable truth is that we're all miserable

yeah, some people here are :( have you visited the recovery forum? I don't go there, but maybe the discussions there are more hopeful?

your family is being unfair, blaming you for the mania and psychosis instead of the medication. why do you think they're doing that?

also, if you don't mind sharing, how do your facial injuries affect you?

 

[Hollowillow]

I have my family but they're very invalidating. They think I should just get over my facial injuries. I have suffered from medication induced mania and psychosis but they don't really believe me even though some of them have experienced the same thing. They put it down to the medication for them but for me they say that's just how I am which isn't true. This place doesn't really make me feel more positive as most people here have some level of commitment to taking their own life as have I so it's far from uplifting. I feel on my own and don't really see an option other than taking my own life though I'd love there to be one. Do you guys have anyone to talk to?

I only feel better by talking to people here.

Tell your invaludating family to fuck off, stop meds (super slowly) they really cause psychosis.

How bad is your face? My skin peeled of everyday for months after using acid to clean... If only it didn't hurt.

Wear fancy fasks? Scars can look badass on a guy.
Cover it with a face tattoo? Different problem... Surgery?

I met someone on SS I really enjoy talking to but I can have really negative moments and I can't help but feel like a burden. I met some other people as well but they have either left SS since or ctb. I like talking to people on here but it doesn't always turn out great.

I need the freedom of negativity! To get real! I NEED IT! GIVE NEGATIVITY TO ME!

*Whispers in your ear* talk negativity to me

Fuck positivity! Fuck it! Life bum me out? Then let's have a bum party!

Fuck yes!

1... 2... 3... Depression!

I love it I feel alive!!! I feel real! I feel me!

Let's bond, bleed into each other's wound, let it form 1 scar and become one messed up being.

Bonding over negativity is deeper... Straight in the gut & bleeding heart. That's the way I like it!!!

No I do not want to bond over painting our nails or something

Let's enjoy a swim in each other's tears.

I never said it out loud before. It. Felt. Good.
Have you ever noticed that perfect people bully to vent pressure? Yeah. Life gave us lemons. Let's enjoy some lemonade.

I have no problem with the site- I go on it a lot, but the sad unavoidable truth is that we're all miserable. I meant irl really anyway. I want to be given sincere hope, but all I get told is that I don't have facial injuries when I do, that the medication never affected me when it did etc. Interestingly enough, I have come across at least 5 people on here who had similar reactions to medication...all suicidal

Fucking gaslight!

Yeah, psych drugs make people suicidal. Read the side effects people. I was called negative for doing it instead to believe ads LIES!

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

It's hard to have an honest conversation with somebody who isn't in the same state of mind…

 

[Hollowillow]

It's hard to have an honest conversation with somebody who isn't in the same state of mind…

I agree. But it's also about being open minded. Many people want to stay in fake pink bubbles. I want to pop them so bad.

 

[Jimblue]

I am sorry to heard about that. I will always be here if you want someone to talk.

 

[Littlewittlelight]

In other words it's hard to talk here when I am not sure if anyone is the same as me. I have people but I don't talk to anyone and all of them are not worth talking to except for one so technically I don't have anyone. I don't know but if you want to talk to anyone I am also here that's something I can do that's really all but I know how it feels I don't even have a single friend because I don't know. I feel bad on some days and sometimes it feels normal.

 

[FuneralCry]

I would rather be alone than be around people. I don't relate to people. People can easily make things worse. Others can never really understand what we go through as we all experience life differently. I've never really felt the need for social interactions, it sounds both tiring and uninteresting.

 

[rationaltake]

I feel some people can make it and have a life. It sounds like you want to make it. Your name is @Hope:-) after all! You've been very organised planning your ctb. Could you put that effort into trying to improve your life? Decide on a plan? There's no denying your real issues. That's where you start.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

Feeling the same way, just too lonely. I don't have time to spare to talk to someone since I need to do so many things now just to stay alive, but I'm exhausted. I wish I had N.

 

[notlongnow]

If anyone ever wants to chat. Please inbox me!! Don't hesitate. I take comfort in engaging with strangers. Its a win win. I promise I won't break into song

 

[theboy]

Me too. Loneliness has been killing me for years.

 

[TheManIllNeverBe]

I have also been losing social support for many years. First I lost my job. Then friends started moving away. Then I moved across the country back to the area where I grew up, hoping to connect with old friends who I stayed in touch with, only to find out that seeing them in person was a lot harder than texting with them from afar. They all had busy lives, jobs, families, etc. So most of the time I hide in my house with my partner. Who is supportive of what I'm going through with my mental health, but I've slowly been wearing him out and dragging him down into depression with me. Which has led me to seek support online. SaSu honestly reminds me of some of the mental health groups I've been in over the years (I've been through partial hospitalization a number of times and DBT twice). Just a bit more open and honest about the darker side of things and a bit less sunshine and butterflies. It's important to find a place where we feel validated.

 

[Popcornmew]

No i dont have anyone. Zero friends and no family as well.

 

[Pluto]

If your experience is anything like mine, it seems that the culture of a family can single out certain members as unimportant, scapegoats or unworthy of care. Even when we are in pain, they would not have any sort of emotional response. Even if we are dying, they would just shrug their shoulders. I am 100% convinced that even when I die, my family will just explain it away and cover up any wrongdoing on their part.

When I was in my 20s, I was haunted by recurring nightmares for years. I would be in the backyard of the family home, getting attacked by enormous pythons. I was terrified and could feel the snakes rubbing up against me. My parents would be standing at a distance and watching me get killed right before their eyes, casually conversing to themselves as if nothing was wrong! Real horror movie vibes.

A difficult lesson that I've learned is that we should never have to explain to family that we deserve basic human rights, or to try and present arguments as to why they should love or care for us. We just have to leave if they cannot be reasoned with. The next challenge is being alone in the world trying to find people to replace that family connection. I can't say it's gone well in my own case.

 

[notlongnow]

I just spoke to the most helpful girl on a crisis hotline, an absolute gem. Scottish girl. Got me thinking why have I never met someone like that in real time. Classic!

 

[Fktw0rld]

Nah. I mean, to talk to about childish stuff, adult materialism and what society considers normal, yeah. Nothing that interests me. I just mostly listen to them talk and nod my head in agreement or act like I find it cool or interesting. But anything on my mind, no, absolutely not. I keep it all to myself.

 

[Hollowillow]

If your experience is anything like mine, it seems that the culture of a family can single out certain members as unimportant, scapegoats or unworthy of care. Even when we are in pain, they would not have any sort of emotional response. Even if we are dying, they would just shrug their shoulders. I am 100% convinced that even when I die, my family will just explain it away and cover up any wrongdoing on their part.

When I was in my 20s, I was haunted by recurring nightmares for years. I would be in the backyard of the family home, getting attacked by enormous pythons. I was terrified and could feel the snakes rubbing up against me. My parents would be standing at a distance and watching me get killed right before their eyes, casually conversing to themselves as if nothing was wrong! Real horror movie vibes.

A difficult lesson that I've learned is that we should never have to explain to family that we deserve basic human rights, or to try and present arguments as to why they should love or care for us. We just have to leave if they cannot be reasoned with. The next challenge is being alone in the world trying to find people to replace that family connection. I can't say it's gone well in my own case.

That's typics narcissist family dynamic. The golden child and... I forgot the word... Black sheep...? Basically a punching bag. 1 can do no wrong, 1 can do no right. I forgot why. Mindfuck? War between kids for their amusement? Sick... I'm so sorry.

 

[makethepainstop]

I have my family but they're very invalidating. They think I should just get over my facial injuries. I have suffered from medication induced mania and psychosis but they don't really believe me even though some of them have experienced the same thing. They put it down to the medication for them but for me they say that's just how I am which isn't true. This place doesn't really make me feel more positive as most people here have some level of commitment to taking their own life as have I so it's far from uplifting. I feel on my own and don't really see an option other than taking my own life though I'd love there to be one. Do you guys have anyone to talk to?

Dude, you start talking to me I will talk your ears off! I imagine at some point you will be saying please, please makethepainstop, quit talking to me. But until then Ill happily speak to you if your interested.

 

[Hollowillow]

Dude, you start talking to me I will talk your ears off! I imagine at some point you will be saying please, please makethepainstop, quit talking to me. But until then Ill happily speak to you if your interested.

I got startled then realized that it's not a threat to cut off ears but a strong invitation to chat. Nice

 

[makethepainstop]

I got startled then realized that it's not a threat to cut off ears but a strong invitation to chat. Nice

Oh no the only ears I would ever cut off would be my own. What I was trying to convey to the person was that I will talk until your ears fall off, from vibrations maybe?

 

[Hope:-)]

I feel some people can make it and have a life. It sounds like you want to make it. Your name is @Hope:-) after all! You've been very organised planning your ctb. Could you put that effort into trying to improve your life? Decide on a plan? There's no denying your real issues. That's where you start.

I would love to make it. Some people here say existence isn't worth it and things like that. I'm nothing like that. I think life is incredible. but if I'm honest my facial injuries and poor prospects from medical negligence get me too down to continue. x

 

[Marktheghost]

I've got noone to talk to. :-(

 

[makethepainstop]

I've got noone to talk to. :-(

Bro or sis speak up people are very nice. This is a place where people can express their thoughts and feelings without fear of receiving a straight jacket and happy pills.

 

[Hope:-)]

Bro or sis speak up people are very nice. This is a place where people can express their thoughts and feelings without fear of receiving a straight jacket and happy pills.

Yeah, it's just hard to deal with being this lonely and isolated in my irl relationships. I have a family but they don't believe me about any of my problems, and no friends. I guess loneliness is something we all feel though.,

 

[Alabama_death]

I know how you feel. I haven't ever had someone who would listen to me. Until I found this forum. If you wish, you can write me any time