Venting I don’t feel seen

[lonergirl_26]

I'm so incredibly lonely and bored. I want so many things. I yarn to go out and do things.
I can't and it's drowning me. I feel like I can't breathe.
I don't know who I am or what I want.
I don't feel seen by my boyfriend he's looking straight through me whfneber I try and explain this feeling.
I have a meeting with mental health services next week. I feel like they won't see me either. I'm nothing more than a transparent being invading peoples lives

 

[Unlucky777]

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. Consider yourself seen, I can relate to a lot of what you are saying. I'm also incredibly lonely and bored mostly because I've been driving people away because I feel very disconnected from people and it's hard for me to relate to other people. I also want to go out and do things but I end up staying in bed mostly. My family and friends ask me to go out but per my last sentence I don't because I feel so very disconnected from them. I also don't know who I am or what I want. It all feels very confusing.

Why can't you go out and do things? For me it's because I'm not allowing myself to.